BE PATIENT....YEAH RIGHT!?!?!?

PATIENCE HAS TO BE ONE OF THE THINGS I TRULY LACK. HONESTLY, I HATE IT!! I WANT THINGS DONE AND I WANT THEM DONE NOW! BUT IN THE LAST FEW DAYS I HAVE BEEN TAUGHT THAT I AM IN TRUE NEED OF IT. THAT IS NOT TO BE SAID THAT THERE ARE NOT OTHER THINGS THAT GO ALONG WITH THAT. IN ORDER TO HAVE PATIENCE I BELIEVE ONE MUST HAVE GRACE, HUMILITY, AND MOST OF ALL THE MOST IMPORTANT...LOVE. ALL THESE THINGS INTER-TWINE TOGETHER AND YOU CAN'T HAVE ONE WITHOUT THE OTHER.
YESTERDAY MY SON HAD A FRIEND WHOM GOT SLOPPY/SCARY WASTED DRUNK THE NIGHT BEFORE. IT WAS CLOSE TO ALCOHOL POISONING, AND THEY THOUGHT THAT THEY COULD HANDLE AN ADULT SITUATION EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE CHILDREN. IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT, AND I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT THEY LEARNED THEIR LESSON. BUT THAT'S NOT MY POINT, OF COURSE THERE IS MORE TO MY STORY. SEE I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS BOY WHO DID THIS, AND HE HAS BEEN DOING STUPID STUFF LIKE THIS FOR AWHILE NOW. AND I FINALLY GOT TO SPEAK WITH HIS PARENTS AND HIM ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON.
THE BOY IS MAD, HE'S PISSED AT THE WORLD THINKING THAT EVERYONE "HAS EVERYTHING AND HE HAS NOTHING". THIS IS WHAT OUR WORLD HAS COME TO, JUDGEMENT OF A LIFE BY A 1 SECOND PICTURE. THESE KIDS THINK THAT, "IF A PERSON IS SMILING IN A PICTURE THEY MUST BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME". BUT THAT IS NOT TRUE AND I THINK ADULTS ARE GUILTY OF THAT ALSO. WE ARE JUDGING PEOPLE'S LIVES BY A 1 SECOND PICTURE AND THEN COMPARING IT TO OUR DAILY, MINUTE BY MINUTE LIVES. WE CAN'T DO THAT!!!! BUT WE HAVE BEEN TRAINED TO DO THAT. IT'S TIME TO TAKE OUR LIVES BACK!!! IT'S TIME TO TAKE OUR CHILDREN BACK!!!
I THINK THESE KIDS ARE TESTING PARENTS TO SEE JUST HOW MUCH THEY LOVE THEM. AND WE ARE FAILING THEM. I'M GUILTY OF IT. MY OLDEST SON DID THE SAME THING AND WE KICKED HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE HIS SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL. WE'RE JUST LUCKY THAT HIS GIRLFRIEND'S FAMILY WAS GRACIOUS ENOUGH TO TAKE HIM IN AND SEE THAT HE GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL. I WAS YOUNG AND HONESTLY I HAD NO IDEA HOW TO RAISE NATE BECAUSE I WAS A CHILD MYSELF. NATE AND I ARE 16 YEARS APART, WE ADOPTED HIM WHEN HE WAS 7 YEARS OLD. HE IS MY BIOLOGICAL NEPHEW (MY SISTER'S SON) BUT MY TRUE SON. AND OF ALL PEOPLE TO DISAPPOINT HIM BY KICKING HIM OUT WAS ME. I HAVE SO MUCH SHAME. I ASKED HIM FOR FORGIVENESS AND HE DID GRANT IT, BUT THE DAMAGE IS DONE. I CAN ONLY BUILD IT UP FROM THERE.
MY POINT IS PARENTS YOU GET ONE CHANCE AT THIS PARENTING THING. DO YOUR BEST. THERE IS NO ROOM FOR PRIDE AND "BEING RIGHT".  TEACH YOUR CHILDREN LOVE, GRACE, HUMILITY, AND PATIENCE. GOD BLESS

WHY DO PEOPLE TALK LIKE THAT

I WAS LISTENING TO "BOTT" RADIO AND ON THIS PARTICULAR RADIO SHOW THE HOST WAS INTERVIEWING SOME AUTHOR OF OVER 70 BOOKS, WHICH IS TOTALLY IMPRESSIVE. BUT WHEN HE WAS GIVING HIS ANSWER IT WAS SO "SCHOLARLY". IT WASN'T FOR THE LAYMAN, YOU KNOW? I THINK THAT PEOPLE FORGET THAT THE PEOPLE WHO NEED GOD ARE NOT SCHOLARS OR SUPER SMART AND CAN UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOUR SUPER COOL WORDS. WE ARE JUST NORMAL PEOPLE IN DESIRE OF NORMAL WORDS TO TEACH US WHAT GOD MEANS. PERIOD! DONE! THAT'S IT! BUT THE PEOPLE IN THE LIME-LIGHT ARE SO GOBBLED UP BY THE NEED TO SOUND LIKE THEY KNOW "IT" THAT THEY FORGET WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT. WHAT IS IMPORTANT IS THE LOVE OF GOD AND THE SAVING OF SOULS!!!!

AS I WAS LISTENING TO THIS RADIO SHOW I WAS IMAGINING IF I WAS NOT A CHRISTIAN AND DIDN'T GET GOD. WHAT I WOULD THINK? I THINK I WOULD REALLY THINK THAT THESE CHRISTIANS WERE SNOTS!!! I WOULD THINK THAT THEY WERE PRETENTIOUS AND "KNOW IT ALLS". HERE'S THE DEAL! SOCIETY NEEDS CHRISTIANS THAT GET GOD BUT ALSO GET PEOPLE, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?!?!? THAT IS IMPERATIVE!!! THE ONLY WAY TO REACH PEOPLE IS TO HUMBLE, TO BE OUR REAL SELVES AND PUT OURSELVES IN THEIR SHOES. YOU KNOW WALK A MILE IN THEIR SHOES, I BELIEVE IN THAT COMPLETELY.

I THINK PEOPLE NEED TO STOP TRYING TO BE SOMETHING THAT THEY ARE NOT, IT'S TIME TO GET REAL! THIS LAST SUNDAY AT CHURCH OUR PASTOR LET HIS 22 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER PREACH AND IT WAS AWESOME!! SHE TRULY HAS THAT GIFT, AND SHE SAID SOMETHING THAT SHOOK ME UP, WELL ONE OF MANY THINGS. BUT THIS ONE THING SHE SAID;

PEOPLE ARE SO BUSY TRYING TO IMPRESS OTHERS THAT IT IS CAUSING INTIMIDATION AND INSECURITY. ALL START WITH THE WORD "I"

I WOULD LIKE WHOM EVER IS READING THIS TO STOP AND THINK ABOUT THAT. LET US STOP THINKING ABOUT OURSELVES AND START THINKING ABOUT OTHERS. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS. NOW GO MAKE GOOD CHOICES. GOD BLESS

I PASSED MY PSYCH EVALUATION!!

I WANT TO START OFF BY SAYING THAT I MADE SOME HUGE MISTAKES  ABOUT WHAT I SAID IN THE PREVIOUS POSTS ABOUT GOD GIVING ME THE GIFT OF CLAIRVOYANCE. I WAS COMPLETELY WRONG AND IT TOOK MY FAMILY TO TAKE ME TO A HOSPITAL FOR A PSYCH EVALUATION FOR ME TO FIGURE IT OUT. THANK YOU JESUS, IN JESUS'S NAME AMEN.

I TOLD MIKE THAT I WOULD GO TO THE HOSPITAL FOR HIM, TO GIVE HIM COMFORT IN THE FACT THAT I''M NOT CRAZY, THAT THIS IS THE LORD. AND I SAID, "IF YOU SEE THAT I'M NOT CRAZY WILL YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS GOD?" AND YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID? "MAYBE" HOW DO YOU SAY MAYBE TO SOMETHING LIKE THAT? BUT NONE THE OTHER HE DID SAY IT. 

SO MY SOCIAL WORKER AT THE HOSPITAL THAT WAS ASSIGNED TO GIVE ME MY EVALUATION HAPPENED TO BE AN ORDAINED MINISTER, THANK YOU LORD! AND SHE HELPED ME FIGURE OUT WHAT IS GOING ON. JERRI EXPLAINED ABOUT THE LIGHT AND MY GIFTS AND TOLD ME TO GET IN THE WORD AND WATCH THE FRUITS OF MY LABOR. IF THE FRUITS OF THE LABOR END WITH DESPAIR THEN IT WAS NOT OF GOD. JERRI SAID THAT I'M A CHILD RIGHT NOW IN MY FAITH WALK AND I NEED TO GET INTO THE "MEAT" OF THE WORD, GOD, FAITH. I NEED TO CALM MY MIND BECAUSE RIGHT NOW IT'S LIKE I'M INTOXICATED ON THE HOLY SPIRIT. BUT IF YOU DON'T CONTROL IT THAT WILL GO OUT. IT IS MY GOAL TO LEARN HOW NOT TO LEARN TO LET THAT HEAT/FLAME BURN OUT. AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE I CAN HELP MY FAMILY OR OTHERS. 

WHEN I SPOKE ABOUT THAT LIGHT IN MY EARLIER POSTS, THAT WAS THE HOLY SPIRIT. I WAS SAVED ON SEPTEMBER 9, 1992 BUT A WEEK AGO I WAS FILLED WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT. AND BOTH ARE WONDERFUL BUT THE HOLY SPIRIT WILL GIVE YOU YOUR GIFTS AND THEN IT IS UP TO YOU TO GET INTO THE WORD AND LEARN HOW TO USE IT. THE MORE YOU USE YOUR GIFT THE MORE GOD WILL TALK TO YOU. THE MORE YOU WILL BE ENTRUSTED WITH MORE GIFTS. HOW WONDERFUL IS THAT?!? AND TO KNOW THAT IF I JUST ASK GOD TO HELP ME WITH MY WORDS AND THOUGHTS WHEN I GET CAUGHT UP IN A DEBATE AND HE DOES IS SO CALMING.

I'M NOT CLAIRVOYANT, I WAS GIVEN THE GIFT OF PROPHECY. BUT I REALLY WANTED TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO SPIRITS, SO I TOOK IT UPON MYSELF TO GIVE MYSELF THAT GIFT. LIFE DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT. IF YOU TAKE IT UPON YOURSELF TO MAKE UP SPIRITUAL GIFTS YOU ARE GOING TO FAIL. BE STILL AND LET GOD. I KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS NOW. I CAN READ THE BIBLE AND UNDERSTAND IT. I ASKED GOD WHAT BOOK I SHOULD BE IN AND HE SAID HEBREWS. I'VE NEVER READ HEBREWS BEFORE, BUT IT'S ABOUT PROPHECY AND HOW IMPORTANT IT IS FOR SOULS TO BE WON OVER FOR GOD. SALVATION IS MORE IMPORTANT NOW THAN EVER BEFORE, WE'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME.

I THINK THAT IS ONE OF MY MISSIONS, WITH THE GUIDANCE OF GOD I WILL TURN PEOPLE OVER TO GOD AND GET THEM TO HEAVEN. I LOVE YOU LORD, IN JESUS'S NAME AMEN.  

TO GET TO ME YOU MUST GO THROUGH HIM

I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME WARNINGS AND DISCLOSURES BEFORE YOU START TO READ MY BLOG. FIRST OF ALL; 1. I WRITE LIKE I TALK , SO KEEP UP 2. I WILL HAVE TYPOS, NOT SURE HOW BAD BUT I'M SURE YOU CAN DEAL WITH FIGURING IT OUT AND NOT POP A BLOOD VESSEL. 3. I MIGHT REPEAT MYSELF, IT JUST MEANS IT WAS IMPORTANT OR I FORGOT I ALREADY TOLD YOU. 4. YOU MAY COMMENT ON THIS BUT IT MUST BE BUT IN A KIND WAY. I DON'T CARE IF YOU WRITE THE MEANEST THING TO ME, BUT IT MUST BE PRESENTED IN A KIND WAY. AND FINALLY 5. I WILL BE CHANGING NAMES, THIS IS ALL FICTIONAL (MAYBE/MAYBE NOT) NO IT IS. PLEASE BE POLITE TO ME, IF NOT FOR ME, DO IT FOR YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU DO TEND TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF WHEN THERE IS A PROBLEM WITH SOMETHING AND IT WAS SOLVED IN A NICE WAY. IT FEELS SO GOOD. I WON'T EDIT THIS, I BELIEVE in THE SUB-CONSCIOUS. THE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS COME OUT IN "TYPOS".

I HAVE A WONDERFUL THERAPIST NAMED GARY AND SINCE I STARTED SEEING HIM MY LIFE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED. WE FIGURED OUT THAT I HAVE A WOUNDED LITTLE 16 YEAR OLD IN ME. I KNEW SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED TO ME BUT I BLAMED IT ON THE WRONG PERSON. WELL, FINALLY MY SUB-CONSCIOUS HAS PUT THE MEMORY TO THE FOREFRONT OF MY MIND. IT IS ONE OF THE MOST VIOLENT AND DISTURBING CRIMINAL ACTS THAT THERE COULD BE. TOGETHER YOU CAN I WILL BE DOCUMENTING MY JOURNEY OF SELF RECONCILIATION. I HAD TO COME TOGETHER, I'M LIVING TWO WORLDS IN MY HEAD AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT. MY GUESS ON HOW IT ALL STARTED WAS ONE DAY I WAS LAYING IN MY BED AND I WAS IN THAT HALF AWAKE AND HALF ASLEEP STATE AND I WAS TALKING TO THESE GRAY SPIRITS.

I STOPPED THEM AND SAID THAT THE ONLY WAY THEY CAN TALK TO ME IS THROUGH MY LORD JESUS CHRIST. AND A LARGE WHITE WARM LIGHT CAME ONE ME ON MY UPPER RIGHT SIDE. IT WAS SUCH A WARM AND LOVING LIGHT. I HUGGED THE LIGHT. AND I WAS SO HAPPY. SOMETHING ALWAYS BRINGS ME BACK TO GOD. NOW I'M TALKING TO SPIRITS, BUT I'M NOT SURE IF I AM OR I'M CRAZY. LIKE GOD GAVE ME THE GIFT OF CLAIRVOYANCE. AND GREG SAID THAT HE HAS HEARD THAT THE LORD DOES GIVE US THE GIFTS LIKE THAT. THAT WAS THE MOMENT I BELIEVE I WAS TRULY SAVED AND WAS A CHILD OF GOD

IT'S NOT A BAD THING TO SPEAK WITH THE SPIRIT SIDE, BUT BEFORE YOU DO TALK TO THEM YOU MUST TELL THEM THEY HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE LORD TO GET TO YOU, IN THE NAME OF JESUS, AMEN.  THAT IS ALSO A WAY TO MAKE SURE THE EVIL ONES KNOW NOT TO MESS WITH YOU. AFTER I GRABBED THAT LIGHT MY LIFE HAS CHANGED, BUT FOR THE BETTER. COME WITH ME FOR THE TRIP!