YOU KNOW I WAS DOING SO WELL, NOT HAVING ANY BAD ATTITUDES AND SUCH, BUT THEN LIFE HAPPENED. I HAVE A HARD TIME LIVING OUTSIDE OF MY EMOTIONAL MIND. I FIGHT DAILY FOR A WISE MIND. AND IF ANYONE OF YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH DBT THERAPY YOU WILL TOTALLY GET WHAT I'M SAYING. BUT I'M A GEMINI AND AM THE YOUNGEST IN MY FAMILY, SO I THINK IT IS JUST A GIVEN I'M GOING TO HAVE AN ATTITUDE. I SPEAK MY MIND BUT SOMETIMES THAT IS NOT A GOOD THING, AND SOMETIMES IT IS.
I STARTED A JOB A WEEK AGO IN A LITTLE LOCAL DINER/BAKERY. I'VE ONLY WORKED FOR A SMALL COMPANY ONCE AND SWORE I WOULD NEVER DO IT AGAIN. BUT MY HUSBAND AND I MET FOR LUNCH ONE DAY, AND WE DECIDED TO GO TO THIS LITTLE DINER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. THE OWNER TOLD ME SHE WAS LOOKING FOR HELP AND I HAPPILY OFFERED MY SERVICES BUT I HAD TO PRAY ABOUT IT FIRST. I PRAYED AND SOUGHT THE LORD'S ADVISE FOR 2 DAYS. AFTER THOSE 2 DAYS, I DECIDED THAT GOD WANTED ME TO BE THERE. SO I STARTED WORKING THERE.
I LOVE THE FACT THAT I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS AND THAT THE OWNER IS LISTENING TO ME. SHE IS STILL RUNNING IT LIKE SHE WANTS BUT SHE LET ME DO WHATEVER JOB I WANTED, SO I DECIDED TO BE THE HEAD CHEF. I DIDN'T REALIZE WHAT A HARD JOB THAT IS. BUT I'M LEARNING AND HOPEFULLY ONE DAY WILL BE IN MANAGEMENT. THAT IS EVERYONE'S GOAL, AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT I'M TOLD.
BUT WORKING HARD LIKE THIS, MAKES IT HARD FOR ME TO "REGULATE" MY MIND. THAT IS MY TROUBLE.
I AM WANTING TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS JOB LIKE NOW! I'M VERY HARD ON MYSELF AND I NEED TO EASE UP AND BE KIND TO MYSELF. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TRAINED AND THAT I AM A USEFUL EMPLOYEE. MY EMOTIONAL MIND IS EXPECTING ME TO KNOW EVERYTHING, AND TO REGULATE THOSE FEELINGS I NEED MY PUT MY DBT THERAPY INTO USE. I'M NOT GOING TO KNOW EVERYTHING AT ONCE AND ESPECIALLY WITHOUT BEING TAUGHT. I ALSO NEED TO LOVE MYSELF AND PUT ME FIRST. SO THAT IS MY FAULT AND I HAVE TO TAKE THIS JOB INTO SECTIONS. HOPEFULLY SOMEDAY I'LL GET IT!
Monday, October 12, 2015
Saturday, October 3, 2015
GOOD DAY SIR!!! NAME THE MOVIE?!?!!?
I DON'T WANT MY BLOG TO BE ABOUT ME COMPLAINING ABOUT MY LIFE AND THE PEOPLE WHOM I COME IN CONTACT WITH. EVEN THOUGH MOST OF THEM ARE IDIOTS, I AM GOING TO SERIOUSLY TRY TO MAKE THIS ONE A LIGHT HEARTED LOVING ONE. SO WISH ME LUCK. HONESTLY I DON'T THINK I CAN DO...BUT I'LL TRY.
LAST NIGHT I HAD MY SON AND FOUR OF HIS FRIENDS OUT AND WE LISTENED TO CLASSIC ROCK AND DROVE AROUND...AT $2.50/GALLON FOR GAS. BUT IT WAS WORTH EVERY PENNY. IT'S SO FUNNY TO WATCH THESE 15 YEAR OLD BOYS DISCOVER AC/DC, PINK FLOYD, AND LED ZEPPELIN. I LOVE THE FACT THEY'RE NOT LISTENING TO CRAPPY RAP, "SHORTY", "MY NIGGA", KIND OF MUSIC. LET'S GET THESE KIDS CULTURED...HAHA.
OUR FIRST ADVENTURE WAS TO AN OLD ABANDONED HOUSE WITH A BARN. THE BARN HAD A NOOSE IN IT. THE HOUSE HAD ALL SORTS OF SPRAY PAINTING AND SAYINGS IN IT. BUT THE FLOOR IN THE HOUSE WAS CAVING IN AND I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS SAFE FOR US TO GO ALL THE WAY INSIDE. THEN OF COURSE, I HAD TO PLAY A TRICK ON THEM AND SAY I SAW SOMETHING. I MADE A HUGE THING WITH IT AND THE BOYS WERE SO SCARED IT TOTALLY MADE MY NIGHT.
FROM THERE WE WENT TO A LAKE AND PLAYED "I DARE YOU". WE DID THE USUAL, "GO BY THIS TREE OVER THERE AND STAND THERE FOR 30 SECONDS". BUT THE BOYS GAVE ME A BIG ONE AND MADE ME GO DOWN THIS PATH IN THE WOODS. I WENT, BUT I WAS PRAYING THE WHOLE TIME (NO LIE). THERE FOUND AN ARCHERY RANGE AT THE END AND THEN SOME OTHER THINGS. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THIS LAKE SINCE 1995 AND I NEVER KNEW THAT WAS THERE. IT WAS PRETTY COOL.
LASTLY, AND PROBABLY THE BEST WAS "CRY BABY BRIDGE". THE LEGEND SAYS THAT ON THIS BRIDGE THERE WERE SACRIFICES. AND ONE IN PARTICULAR WAS A MOTHER KILLING HER BABY. THE BRIDGE WAS TAKEN DOWN IN 2009, TO WIDEN THE ROAD...BUT!!! WE PULLED OFF A SIDE ROAD RIGHT NEXT TO THE BRIDGE AND JUST SAT THERE. AND THE RULES ARE YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR KEYS ON THE HOOD OF YOUR CAR. SO I DID!! THEN ROLL DOWN YOUR WINDOWS (WE CRACKED OURS BECAUSE IT WAS COLD) AND JUST WAITED.
WE WERE OF COURSE, ON OUR PHONES LOOKING UP THE BRIDGE INFO TO MAKE SURE WE WERE ON THE RIGHT ONE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE HEARD A SCREAM. IT WAS PERFECTLY CLEAR AND ALL 5 OF US HEARD IT AT THE SAME TIME. YOU KNOW THAT FEELING WHEN YOU'RE REALLY SCARED AND YOUR BODY GOES WARM, YOUR VISION GOES BLACK AND BLURRY, AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO PEE YOUR PANTS? YEAH THAT WAS US!! AND I STILL HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND GET MY KEYS ON THE HOOD OF THE CAR. I'M NOT AFRAID OF A LOT, PROBABLY CLOSE TO NOTHING BECAUSE I HAVE MY LORD, BUT THIS SERIOUSLY SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. BUT I GOT THOSE KEYS IN THE PITCH BLACK NIGHT AND WE GOT THE HECK OUT OF THERE AND WENT HOME.
WHAT A FUN NIGHT!! I LOVE THESE BOYS!!!
LAST NIGHT I HAD MY SON AND FOUR OF HIS FRIENDS OUT AND WE LISTENED TO CLASSIC ROCK AND DROVE AROUND...AT $2.50/GALLON FOR GAS. BUT IT WAS WORTH EVERY PENNY. IT'S SO FUNNY TO WATCH THESE 15 YEAR OLD BOYS DISCOVER AC/DC, PINK FLOYD, AND LED ZEPPELIN. I LOVE THE FACT THEY'RE NOT LISTENING TO CRAPPY RAP, "SHORTY", "MY NIGGA", KIND OF MUSIC. LET'S GET THESE KIDS CULTURED...HAHA.
OUR FIRST ADVENTURE WAS TO AN OLD ABANDONED HOUSE WITH A BARN. THE BARN HAD A NOOSE IN IT. THE HOUSE HAD ALL SORTS OF SPRAY PAINTING AND SAYINGS IN IT. BUT THE FLOOR IN THE HOUSE WAS CAVING IN AND I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS SAFE FOR US TO GO ALL THE WAY INSIDE. THEN OF COURSE, I HAD TO PLAY A TRICK ON THEM AND SAY I SAW SOMETHING. I MADE A HUGE THING WITH IT AND THE BOYS WERE SO SCARED IT TOTALLY MADE MY NIGHT.
FROM THERE WE WENT TO A LAKE AND PLAYED "I DARE YOU". WE DID THE USUAL, "GO BY THIS TREE OVER THERE AND STAND THERE FOR 30 SECONDS". BUT THE BOYS GAVE ME A BIG ONE AND MADE ME GO DOWN THIS PATH IN THE WOODS. I WENT, BUT I WAS PRAYING THE WHOLE TIME (NO LIE). THERE FOUND AN ARCHERY RANGE AT THE END AND THEN SOME OTHER THINGS. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THIS LAKE SINCE 1995 AND I NEVER KNEW THAT WAS THERE. IT WAS PRETTY COOL.
LASTLY, AND PROBABLY THE BEST WAS "CRY BABY BRIDGE". THE LEGEND SAYS THAT ON THIS BRIDGE THERE WERE SACRIFICES. AND ONE IN PARTICULAR WAS A MOTHER KILLING HER BABY. THE BRIDGE WAS TAKEN DOWN IN 2009, TO WIDEN THE ROAD...BUT!!! WE PULLED OFF A SIDE ROAD RIGHT NEXT TO THE BRIDGE AND JUST SAT THERE. AND THE RULES ARE YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR KEYS ON THE HOOD OF YOUR CAR. SO I DID!! THEN ROLL DOWN YOUR WINDOWS (WE CRACKED OURS BECAUSE IT WAS COLD) AND JUST WAITED.
WE WERE OF COURSE, ON OUR PHONES LOOKING UP THE BRIDGE INFO TO MAKE SURE WE WERE ON THE RIGHT ONE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE HEARD A SCREAM. IT WAS PERFECTLY CLEAR AND ALL 5 OF US HEARD IT AT THE SAME TIME. YOU KNOW THAT FEELING WHEN YOU'RE REALLY SCARED AND YOUR BODY GOES WARM, YOUR VISION GOES BLACK AND BLURRY, AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO PEE YOUR PANTS? YEAH THAT WAS US!! AND I STILL HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND GET MY KEYS ON THE HOOD OF THE CAR. I'M NOT AFRAID OF A LOT, PROBABLY CLOSE TO NOTHING BECAUSE I HAVE MY LORD, BUT THIS SERIOUSLY SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. BUT I GOT THOSE KEYS IN THE PITCH BLACK NIGHT AND WE GOT THE HECK OUT OF THERE AND WENT HOME.
WHAT A FUN NIGHT!! I LOVE THESE BOYS!!!
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