I'M LOSING MY MIND I'M TELLING YOU! I FORGET EVERYTHING! I LEFT A WAFFLE IN THE WAFFLE IRON FRIDAY MORNING AND TODAY I LEFT THE TEA ON THE STOVE AND NOW MY POT IS BURNT. URGH!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I KNOW THAT I HAVE TO GO IN FOR A MAMMOGRAM TOMORROW AND I'M A BIT FREAKED OUT ABOUT THAT. I'M GETTING A 3D ONE, BECAUSE MY INSURANCE PAYS FOR IT. AND I HAVE SOME ISSUES WITH MY BOOBS. BUT I'VE BEEN SICK, MY LIVER, PANCREAS, AND KIDNEYS ARE NOT DOING WELL AND I'M IN A BIT OF PAIN DUE TO THOSE NOT WORKING PROPERLY. PLEASE SAY A LITTLE PRAYER MY WAY IF YOU WOULD, THANK YOU.
AND LAST NIGHT WE HAD A MURDER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. IT WAS A HORRIBLE SENSELESS ACT. BUT AREN'T MOST MURDERS?!? A 23 YEAR OLD WAS KILLED FOR STANDING IN THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME. IT WAS A BAR FIGHT AT THIS LOCAL DIVE BAR, A MOTORCYCLE BAR. A ROUGH AND TOUGH BAR IF YOU WILL, AND THE KILLER GUY, GREG COOPER SWUNG A POOL CUE AT ANOTHER GUY, MISSED HIM AND HIT THIS 23 YEAR OLD IN THE HEAD AND KILLED HIM INSTANTLY. ISN'T THAT HORRIBLE! NOW MR. COOPER IS BOOKED ON CHARGES OF 2ND DEGREE MURDER AND HIS LIFE IS PRETTY MUCH OVER, IN 3 SECONDS OVER A BAD DECISION.
THAT'S ALL IT TAKES, JUST SECONDS TO RUIN YOUR LIFE. IT AMAZES ME EVERYDAY THE CHOICES PEOPLE MAKE, ME INCLUDED IN THAT STATEMENT. I SMOKE, AND I WOULD LOVE TO QUIT, BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT WITHDRAWAL. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT, IT'S THE TRUTH, PLUS I LIKE SMOKING IT GIVES ME COMFORT AND I DO SOME GREAT THINKING WHEN I'M OUTSIDE BY MYSELF SMOKING, AND KILLING MYSELF WITH EVERY PUFF, I KNOW! I KNOW! SO MY MESSAGE FOR EVERYONE TODAY IS THINK 2X OR 3X BEFORE SWINGING THAT POOL CUE, IS IT GOING TO BE WORTH SPENDING THE REST OF YOUR LIFE IN JAIL?
Sunday, December 20, 2015
Friday, December 18, 2015
I'VE NEVER BEEN ONE TO WORK
I HAD A JOB FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS UNTIL I WALKED OUT OF IT. LITERALLY, I WALKED OUT, WHICH I HAVE NEVER EVER DONE IN MY LIFE. I'LL TELL YOU LIFE IS WAY TO SHORT TO BE STRESSED OUT AND FRANTIC. I WORKED AT THIS LITTLE BAKERY AND CAFE IN MY SMALL TOWN HERE IN KANSAS. IT HAD ALL THE POTENTIAL OF BEING A HUGE SUCCESS BUT THERE WAS ONE THING IN ITS WAY....THE OWNER. SHE WAS A SCATTERED BRAINED, SASSY MOUTHED, "EVERYONE IS OUT TO GET ME" KIND OF PERSON. AND I HAD SOME SERIOUS WHIPLASH GOING ON WITH ALL OF HER MOOD SWINGS.
I CAN'T BASH ON MOOD SWINGS, I HAVE THEM TOO. HERE IS AN EXAMPLE, WHEN THE OWNER, WE WILL CALL HER BARBIE, HAD A CHANCE TO LEAVE EARLY FOR THE NIGHT TO BE WITH HER FAMILY, BARBIE DECIDED TO START A DELIVERY SERVICE...THAT NIGHT!!! REALLY? WHAT? BARBIE'S NOT ONLY IS THE OWNER BUT THE CHEF & THAT PARTICULAR NIGHT WE GOT SLAMMED. WE HAD 7 FAMILIES COME INTO OUR SMALL DINER ALL AT ONCE AND THE CHEF WAS GONE DOING "DELIVERIES". I HAD TO BE THE WAITRESS, COOK, CASHIER, & SELL ITEMS FROM THE FRONT CASE (BAKED GOODS). THEN WHEN BARBIE FINALLY CAME BACK SAW THAT IT WAS A BIT IN DISARRAY & HAD THE BALLS TO GET UPSET WITH ME! I QUIT THE NEXT DAY, I WALKED OUT OF THERE, NO I RAN OUT OF THERE.
BARBIE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES LIKE HOLLYWOOD STARS CHANGE SPOUSES. SHE BLAMES IT ON HER NOT BEING ABLE TO TRAIN PEOPLE, BUT REALLY SHE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES BECAUSE SHE IS SO HARD TO WORK WITH. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO WORK FOR HER. ONE MINUTE SHE IS PRAISING YOU THE NEXT YOU CAN DO NOTHING RIGHT. SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HER OLD EMPLOYEES THAT STOLE FROM HER! REALLY? I NEVER TOOK ANYTHING FROM THAT WOMAN, OR AS SHE PUT IT, "PUT A HAM IN MY ARM PIT". SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HEROIN USERS AND THIEVES MY FIRST WEEK OF WORKING THERE. THAT WASN'T TOO COOL.
AND WHY AM I TELLING YOU ALL THIS? IF YOU ARE A MANAGER OR EMPLOYER PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS TO YOUR EMPLOYEES. JUST BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE THAT WORKED FOR YOU WERE BAD, DOESN'T MEAN ALL PEOPLE ARE BAD. PLUS, YOU HIRED THEM, DON'T PUNISH ME FOR A MISTAKE THAT YOU DID. I WAS NEVER TRULY GIVEN A FAIR CHANCE AND THAT IS ON BARBIE NOT ME! I WOULD STILL BE THERE IF I WASN'T TAKEN FOR GRANTED, VERBALLY ABUSED, AND WORKED TO DEATH. THERE ARE TIMES THAT YOU HAVE TO WATCH OUT FOR YOURSELF AND THIS WAS ONE.
I CAN'T BASH ON MOOD SWINGS, I HAVE THEM TOO. HERE IS AN EXAMPLE, WHEN THE OWNER, WE WILL CALL HER BARBIE, HAD A CHANCE TO LEAVE EARLY FOR THE NIGHT TO BE WITH HER FAMILY, BARBIE DECIDED TO START A DELIVERY SERVICE...THAT NIGHT!!! REALLY? WHAT? BARBIE'S NOT ONLY IS THE OWNER BUT THE CHEF & THAT PARTICULAR NIGHT WE GOT SLAMMED. WE HAD 7 FAMILIES COME INTO OUR SMALL DINER ALL AT ONCE AND THE CHEF WAS GONE DOING "DELIVERIES". I HAD TO BE THE WAITRESS, COOK, CASHIER, & SELL ITEMS FROM THE FRONT CASE (BAKED GOODS). THEN WHEN BARBIE FINALLY CAME BACK SAW THAT IT WAS A BIT IN DISARRAY & HAD THE BALLS TO GET UPSET WITH ME! I QUIT THE NEXT DAY, I WALKED OUT OF THERE, NO I RAN OUT OF THERE.
BARBIE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES LIKE HOLLYWOOD STARS CHANGE SPOUSES. SHE BLAMES IT ON HER NOT BEING ABLE TO TRAIN PEOPLE, BUT REALLY SHE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES BECAUSE SHE IS SO HARD TO WORK WITH. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO WORK FOR HER. ONE MINUTE SHE IS PRAISING YOU THE NEXT YOU CAN DO NOTHING RIGHT. SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HER OLD EMPLOYEES THAT STOLE FROM HER! REALLY? I NEVER TOOK ANYTHING FROM THAT WOMAN, OR AS SHE PUT IT, "PUT A HAM IN MY ARM PIT". SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HEROIN USERS AND THIEVES MY FIRST WEEK OF WORKING THERE. THAT WASN'T TOO COOL.
AND WHY AM I TELLING YOU ALL THIS? IF YOU ARE A MANAGER OR EMPLOYER PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS TO YOUR EMPLOYEES. JUST BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE THAT WORKED FOR YOU WERE BAD, DOESN'T MEAN ALL PEOPLE ARE BAD. PLUS, YOU HIRED THEM, DON'T PUNISH ME FOR A MISTAKE THAT YOU DID. I WAS NEVER TRULY GIVEN A FAIR CHANCE AND THAT IS ON BARBIE NOT ME! I WOULD STILL BE THERE IF I WASN'T TAKEN FOR GRANTED, VERBALLY ABUSED, AND WORKED TO DEATH. THERE ARE TIMES THAT YOU HAVE TO WATCH OUT FOR YOURSELF AND THIS WAS ONE.
Monday, October 12, 2015
LIFE IS FUNNY...
YOU KNOW I WAS DOING SO WELL, NOT HAVING ANY BAD ATTITUDES AND SUCH, BUT THEN LIFE HAPPENED. I HAVE A HARD TIME LIVING OUTSIDE OF MY EMOTIONAL MIND. I FIGHT DAILY FOR A WISE MIND. AND IF ANYONE OF YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH DBT THERAPY YOU WILL TOTALLY GET WHAT I'M SAYING. BUT I'M A GEMINI AND AM THE YOUNGEST IN MY FAMILY, SO I THINK IT IS JUST A GIVEN I'M GOING TO HAVE AN ATTITUDE. I SPEAK MY MIND BUT SOMETIMES THAT IS NOT A GOOD THING, AND SOMETIMES IT IS.
I STARTED A JOB A WEEK AGO IN A LITTLE LOCAL DINER/BAKERY. I'VE ONLY WORKED FOR A SMALL COMPANY ONCE AND SWORE I WOULD NEVER DO IT AGAIN. BUT MY HUSBAND AND I MET FOR LUNCH ONE DAY, AND WE DECIDED TO GO TO THIS LITTLE DINER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. THE OWNER TOLD ME SHE WAS LOOKING FOR HELP AND I HAPPILY OFFERED MY SERVICES BUT I HAD TO PRAY ABOUT IT FIRST. I PRAYED AND SOUGHT THE LORD'S ADVISE FOR 2 DAYS. AFTER THOSE 2 DAYS, I DECIDED THAT GOD WANTED ME TO BE THERE. SO I STARTED WORKING THERE.
I LOVE THE FACT THAT I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS AND THAT THE OWNER IS LISTENING TO ME. SHE IS STILL RUNNING IT LIKE SHE WANTS BUT SHE LET ME DO WHATEVER JOB I WANTED, SO I DECIDED TO BE THE HEAD CHEF. I DIDN'T REALIZE WHAT A HARD JOB THAT IS. BUT I'M LEARNING AND HOPEFULLY ONE DAY WILL BE IN MANAGEMENT. THAT IS EVERYONE'S GOAL, AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT I'M TOLD.
BUT WORKING HARD LIKE THIS, MAKES IT HARD FOR ME TO "REGULATE" MY MIND. THAT IS MY TROUBLE.
I AM WANTING TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS JOB LIKE NOW! I'M VERY HARD ON MYSELF AND I NEED TO EASE UP AND BE KIND TO MYSELF. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TRAINED AND THAT I AM A USEFUL EMPLOYEE. MY EMOTIONAL MIND IS EXPECTING ME TO KNOW EVERYTHING, AND TO REGULATE THOSE FEELINGS I NEED MY PUT MY DBT THERAPY INTO USE. I'M NOT GOING TO KNOW EVERYTHING AT ONCE AND ESPECIALLY WITHOUT BEING TAUGHT. I ALSO NEED TO LOVE MYSELF AND PUT ME FIRST. SO THAT IS MY FAULT AND I HAVE TO TAKE THIS JOB INTO SECTIONS. HOPEFULLY SOMEDAY I'LL GET IT!
I STARTED A JOB A WEEK AGO IN A LITTLE LOCAL DINER/BAKERY. I'VE ONLY WORKED FOR A SMALL COMPANY ONCE AND SWORE I WOULD NEVER DO IT AGAIN. BUT MY HUSBAND AND I MET FOR LUNCH ONE DAY, AND WE DECIDED TO GO TO THIS LITTLE DINER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. THE OWNER TOLD ME SHE WAS LOOKING FOR HELP AND I HAPPILY OFFERED MY SERVICES BUT I HAD TO PRAY ABOUT IT FIRST. I PRAYED AND SOUGHT THE LORD'S ADVISE FOR 2 DAYS. AFTER THOSE 2 DAYS, I DECIDED THAT GOD WANTED ME TO BE THERE. SO I STARTED WORKING THERE.
I LOVE THE FACT THAT I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS AND THAT THE OWNER IS LISTENING TO ME. SHE IS STILL RUNNING IT LIKE SHE WANTS BUT SHE LET ME DO WHATEVER JOB I WANTED, SO I DECIDED TO BE THE HEAD CHEF. I DIDN'T REALIZE WHAT A HARD JOB THAT IS. BUT I'M LEARNING AND HOPEFULLY ONE DAY WILL BE IN MANAGEMENT. THAT IS EVERYONE'S GOAL, AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT I'M TOLD.
BUT WORKING HARD LIKE THIS, MAKES IT HARD FOR ME TO "REGULATE" MY MIND. THAT IS MY TROUBLE.
I AM WANTING TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS JOB LIKE NOW! I'M VERY HARD ON MYSELF AND I NEED TO EASE UP AND BE KIND TO MYSELF. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TRAINED AND THAT I AM A USEFUL EMPLOYEE. MY EMOTIONAL MIND IS EXPECTING ME TO KNOW EVERYTHING, AND TO REGULATE THOSE FEELINGS I NEED MY PUT MY DBT THERAPY INTO USE. I'M NOT GOING TO KNOW EVERYTHING AT ONCE AND ESPECIALLY WITHOUT BEING TAUGHT. I ALSO NEED TO LOVE MYSELF AND PUT ME FIRST. SO THAT IS MY FAULT AND I HAVE TO TAKE THIS JOB INTO SECTIONS. HOPEFULLY SOMEDAY I'LL GET IT!
Saturday, October 3, 2015
GOOD DAY SIR!!! NAME THE MOVIE?!?!!?
I DON'T WANT MY BLOG TO BE ABOUT ME COMPLAINING ABOUT MY LIFE AND THE PEOPLE WHOM I COME IN CONTACT WITH. EVEN THOUGH MOST OF THEM ARE IDIOTS, I AM GOING TO SERIOUSLY TRY TO MAKE THIS ONE A LIGHT HEARTED LOVING ONE. SO WISH ME LUCK. HONESTLY I DON'T THINK I CAN DO...BUT I'LL TRY.
LAST NIGHT I HAD MY SON AND FOUR OF HIS FRIENDS OUT AND WE LISTENED TO CLASSIC ROCK AND DROVE AROUND...AT $2.50/GALLON FOR GAS. BUT IT WAS WORTH EVERY PENNY. IT'S SO FUNNY TO WATCH THESE 15 YEAR OLD BOYS DISCOVER AC/DC, PINK FLOYD, AND LED ZEPPELIN. I LOVE THE FACT THEY'RE NOT LISTENING TO CRAPPY RAP, "SHORTY", "MY NIGGA", KIND OF MUSIC. LET'S GET THESE KIDS CULTURED...HAHA.
OUR FIRST ADVENTURE WAS TO AN OLD ABANDONED HOUSE WITH A BARN. THE BARN HAD A NOOSE IN IT. THE HOUSE HAD ALL SORTS OF SPRAY PAINTING AND SAYINGS IN IT. BUT THE FLOOR IN THE HOUSE WAS CAVING IN AND I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS SAFE FOR US TO GO ALL THE WAY INSIDE. THEN OF COURSE, I HAD TO PLAY A TRICK ON THEM AND SAY I SAW SOMETHING. I MADE A HUGE THING WITH IT AND THE BOYS WERE SO SCARED IT TOTALLY MADE MY NIGHT.
FROM THERE WE WENT TO A LAKE AND PLAYED "I DARE YOU". WE DID THE USUAL, "GO BY THIS TREE OVER THERE AND STAND THERE FOR 30 SECONDS". BUT THE BOYS GAVE ME A BIG ONE AND MADE ME GO DOWN THIS PATH IN THE WOODS. I WENT, BUT I WAS PRAYING THE WHOLE TIME (NO LIE). THERE FOUND AN ARCHERY RANGE AT THE END AND THEN SOME OTHER THINGS. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THIS LAKE SINCE 1995 AND I NEVER KNEW THAT WAS THERE. IT WAS PRETTY COOL.
LASTLY, AND PROBABLY THE BEST WAS "CRY BABY BRIDGE". THE LEGEND SAYS THAT ON THIS BRIDGE THERE WERE SACRIFICES. AND ONE IN PARTICULAR WAS A MOTHER KILLING HER BABY. THE BRIDGE WAS TAKEN DOWN IN 2009, TO WIDEN THE ROAD...BUT!!! WE PULLED OFF A SIDE ROAD RIGHT NEXT TO THE BRIDGE AND JUST SAT THERE. AND THE RULES ARE YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR KEYS ON THE HOOD OF YOUR CAR. SO I DID!! THEN ROLL DOWN YOUR WINDOWS (WE CRACKED OURS BECAUSE IT WAS COLD) AND JUST WAITED.
WE WERE OF COURSE, ON OUR PHONES LOOKING UP THE BRIDGE INFO TO MAKE SURE WE WERE ON THE RIGHT ONE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE HEARD A SCREAM. IT WAS PERFECTLY CLEAR AND ALL 5 OF US HEARD IT AT THE SAME TIME. YOU KNOW THAT FEELING WHEN YOU'RE REALLY SCARED AND YOUR BODY GOES WARM, YOUR VISION GOES BLACK AND BLURRY, AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO PEE YOUR PANTS? YEAH THAT WAS US!! AND I STILL HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND GET MY KEYS ON THE HOOD OF THE CAR. I'M NOT AFRAID OF A LOT, PROBABLY CLOSE TO NOTHING BECAUSE I HAVE MY LORD, BUT THIS SERIOUSLY SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. BUT I GOT THOSE KEYS IN THE PITCH BLACK NIGHT AND WE GOT THE HECK OUT OF THERE AND WENT HOME.
WHAT A FUN NIGHT!! I LOVE THESE BOYS!!!
LAST NIGHT I HAD MY SON AND FOUR OF HIS FRIENDS OUT AND WE LISTENED TO CLASSIC ROCK AND DROVE AROUND...AT $2.50/GALLON FOR GAS. BUT IT WAS WORTH EVERY PENNY. IT'S SO FUNNY TO WATCH THESE 15 YEAR OLD BOYS DISCOVER AC/DC, PINK FLOYD, AND LED ZEPPELIN. I LOVE THE FACT THEY'RE NOT LISTENING TO CRAPPY RAP, "SHORTY", "MY NIGGA", KIND OF MUSIC. LET'S GET THESE KIDS CULTURED...HAHA.
OUR FIRST ADVENTURE WAS TO AN OLD ABANDONED HOUSE WITH A BARN. THE BARN HAD A NOOSE IN IT. THE HOUSE HAD ALL SORTS OF SPRAY PAINTING AND SAYINGS IN IT. BUT THE FLOOR IN THE HOUSE WAS CAVING IN AND I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS SAFE FOR US TO GO ALL THE WAY INSIDE. THEN OF COURSE, I HAD TO PLAY A TRICK ON THEM AND SAY I SAW SOMETHING. I MADE A HUGE THING WITH IT AND THE BOYS WERE SO SCARED IT TOTALLY MADE MY NIGHT.
FROM THERE WE WENT TO A LAKE AND PLAYED "I DARE YOU". WE DID THE USUAL, "GO BY THIS TREE OVER THERE AND STAND THERE FOR 30 SECONDS". BUT THE BOYS GAVE ME A BIG ONE AND MADE ME GO DOWN THIS PATH IN THE WOODS. I WENT, BUT I WAS PRAYING THE WHOLE TIME (NO LIE). THERE FOUND AN ARCHERY RANGE AT THE END AND THEN SOME OTHER THINGS. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THIS LAKE SINCE 1995 AND I NEVER KNEW THAT WAS THERE. IT WAS PRETTY COOL.
LASTLY, AND PROBABLY THE BEST WAS "CRY BABY BRIDGE". THE LEGEND SAYS THAT ON THIS BRIDGE THERE WERE SACRIFICES. AND ONE IN PARTICULAR WAS A MOTHER KILLING HER BABY. THE BRIDGE WAS TAKEN DOWN IN 2009, TO WIDEN THE ROAD...BUT!!! WE PULLED OFF A SIDE ROAD RIGHT NEXT TO THE BRIDGE AND JUST SAT THERE. AND THE RULES ARE YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR KEYS ON THE HOOD OF YOUR CAR. SO I DID!! THEN ROLL DOWN YOUR WINDOWS (WE CRACKED OURS BECAUSE IT WAS COLD) AND JUST WAITED.
WE WERE OF COURSE, ON OUR PHONES LOOKING UP THE BRIDGE INFO TO MAKE SURE WE WERE ON THE RIGHT ONE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE HEARD A SCREAM. IT WAS PERFECTLY CLEAR AND ALL 5 OF US HEARD IT AT THE SAME TIME. YOU KNOW THAT FEELING WHEN YOU'RE REALLY SCARED AND YOUR BODY GOES WARM, YOUR VISION GOES BLACK AND BLURRY, AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO PEE YOUR PANTS? YEAH THAT WAS US!! AND I STILL HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND GET MY KEYS ON THE HOOD OF THE CAR. I'M NOT AFRAID OF A LOT, PROBABLY CLOSE TO NOTHING BECAUSE I HAVE MY LORD, BUT THIS SERIOUSLY SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. BUT I GOT THOSE KEYS IN THE PITCH BLACK NIGHT AND WE GOT THE HECK OUT OF THERE AND WENT HOME.
WHAT A FUN NIGHT!! I LOVE THESE BOYS!!!
Sunday, September 20, 2015
THESE SOCCER PARENTS NEED TO BE RED CARDED!!!!
FIRST OFF I WOULD LIKE TO COMMENT ABOUT THE POST PRIOR TO THIS ON TITHING. I DO BELIEVE IN TITHING! THE WORD TITHE MEANS 10%, SO GOD ONLY ASKS FOR THE FIRST 10%, THAT'S IT. WE PERSONALLY TITHE ON THE 10% OF OUR NET NOT GROSS BECAUSE HONESTLY THAT'S OUR FAULT. ONE REASON WE DON'T HAVE A LOT OF MONEY RIGHT NOW AND TWO, WE ARE NOT COMPLETELY TRUSTING IN GOD. I'M JUST KEEPING IT REAL, BUT FOR US TO GIVE 10% ON OUR NET IS HUGE! I MEAN HUGE! FOR US. AND YOU KNOW WHAT...IT'S AMAZING BECAUSE THE MONEY CONTINUES TO ROLL INTO OUR HOUSE. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE IT'S COMING FROM, WELL I DO IT'S GOD, BUT HE NEVER LETS US DOWN OR GO WITHOUT, AND HE WILL ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF US. I JUST NEEDED TO CLEAR THAT UP FROM BEFORE, OK ONTO SOCCER PARENTS. HAHA
MALACHI 3:8 "Begin by being honest. Do honest people rob God? But you rob me day after day. "You ask, 'How have we robbed you?' "The tithe and the offering - that's how!'
MALACHI 3:10 10 Bring your full tithe to the Temple treasury so there will be ample provisions in my Temple. Test me in this and see if I don't open up heaven itself to you and pour out blessings beyond your wildest dreams.
MY YOUNGEST SON STARTED HIS FIRST JOB AS A REFEREE AT A LOCAL SOCCER LEAGUE IN OUR AREA. I LIVE IN A VERY AFFLUENT AREA CALLED JOHNSON COUNTY KANSAS, LOOK IT UP THERE IS LOTS OF MONEY OUT HERE, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN LOTS OF HAPPINESS. SO I DECIDED TO WATCH HIM REF HIS LAST GAME AND WAS GOING TO STAND IN THE BACKGROUND, IN THE SHADE, AND JUST BASK IN APPRECIATION THAT MY SON IS WANTING TO GET OUT THERE AND WORK IN THE SPORT INDUSTRY EVEN THOUGH DUE TO A GENETIC CONNECTIVE TISSUE DISEASE HE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PLAY ANY KIND OF SPORTS. SEE HE HAS MARFAN SYNDROME AND HE IS A FLUKE THAT HE EVEN HAS IT BECAUSE NO ONE IN OUT FAMILY HAS IT. HE IS AN AMAZING PERSON!! AND I AM SO PROUD OF HIM.
BUT THIS ONE MOTHER, IF YOU WANT TO CALL HER THAT, STARTED YELLING AT AT MY SON. AND THAT'S WHEN MY CLAWS COME OUT. DON'T EVER EVER EVER TALK SIDEWAYS TO ANY OF MY CHILDREN...EVER!!! SO I WALKED UP TO THE SIDELINES AND STOOD BETWEEN MY SON AND HER. AND SHE WAS YELLING FOR HER TEAM AND SHE WAS LOUD, NEVER ONCE DID SHE CHEER ON THE OTHER TEAM. OH DID I MENTION THESE WERE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! YEAH! LITTLE BOYS! WE WONDER WHY OUR CHILDREN ARE SHOOTING EACH OTHER IN SCHOOLS OR DISRESPECTING POLICE OFFICERS? WELL LET'S LOOK AT THE SIDELINES OF A SOCCER GAME! WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TEACHING YOUR CHILDREN?!?!
I WENT TO ON ASK MY SON DURING THE GAME IF HE WAS SURE HE WANTED TO DO THIS JOB BECAUSE THESE PARENTS ARE CRAZY, WELL THAT GOT ALL THESE CRAZY PARENTS EVEN MORE CRAZY! THEY DECIDED TO GO AFTER ME, BUT I CAN HOLD MY OWN BECAUSE I HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT WITH ME ALWAYS. I WENT ON TO EXPLAIN TO THEM THAT THESE ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS, AND HOW THEY NEVER CHEERED ON THE OTHER TEAM, AND YELLING AT THE REF (ON HIS FIRST DAY) WAS UNACCEPTABLE, AND THEN AGAIN REMINDING THEM THEY ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! THEY BLAMED MY SON FOR ONE OF THE PLAYERS GETTING HURT, SO I WAS LIKE DID MY SON GO ON THE FIELD AND KICK HIM?? THAT DIDN'T GO OVER WELL. HAHAHA
ANOTHER PROBLEM I HAVE. WHY DON'T THEY DO THE HAND "HIGH FIVE" THING ANYMORE. YOU KNOW HOW THE TEAMS WALK ACROSS THE FIELDS TELLING EACH OTHER "GOOD JOB". NONE OF THAT HAPPENING, I WAS APPALLED! THIS IS WHY THERE IS BULLYING AND FIGHTING IN SCHOOL! BUT THE BEST WAS WHEN I WALKED AWAY, THE "MOM" WITH THE LEGGINGS, TIGHT PINK SHIRT, AND BLEACH BLONDE SPIKY HAIR GOES, "BYE FELICIA"! HAHAHA! WHO SAYS THAT ANYMORE???? I JUST TURNED AN LOOKED AT HER IN CONFUSION. REALLY?
IF YOU ARE A SOCCER PARENT AND READING THIS, IT STARTS WITH YOU! PLEASE MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND INSPIRE YOUR CHILDREN AND THE OTHER CHILDREN. EVEN TRY TO INSPIRE THE COACHES AND ENCOURAGE THE TEENAGER REFEREES.
MALACHI 3:8 "Begin by being honest. Do honest people rob God? But you rob me day after day. "You ask, 'How have we robbed you?' "The tithe and the offering - that's how!'
MALACHI 3:10 10 Bring your full tithe to the Temple treasury so there will be ample provisions in my Temple. Test me in this and see if I don't open up heaven itself to you and pour out blessings beyond your wildest dreams.
MY YOUNGEST SON STARTED HIS FIRST JOB AS A REFEREE AT A LOCAL SOCCER LEAGUE IN OUR AREA. I LIVE IN A VERY AFFLUENT AREA CALLED JOHNSON COUNTY KANSAS, LOOK IT UP THERE IS LOTS OF MONEY OUT HERE, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN LOTS OF HAPPINESS. SO I DECIDED TO WATCH HIM REF HIS LAST GAME AND WAS GOING TO STAND IN THE BACKGROUND, IN THE SHADE, AND JUST BASK IN APPRECIATION THAT MY SON IS WANTING TO GET OUT THERE AND WORK IN THE SPORT INDUSTRY EVEN THOUGH DUE TO A GENETIC CONNECTIVE TISSUE DISEASE HE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PLAY ANY KIND OF SPORTS. SEE HE HAS MARFAN SYNDROME AND HE IS A FLUKE THAT HE EVEN HAS IT BECAUSE NO ONE IN OUT FAMILY HAS IT. HE IS AN AMAZING PERSON!! AND I AM SO PROUD OF HIM.
BUT THIS ONE MOTHER, IF YOU WANT TO CALL HER THAT, STARTED YELLING AT AT MY SON. AND THAT'S WHEN MY CLAWS COME OUT. DON'T EVER EVER EVER TALK SIDEWAYS TO ANY OF MY CHILDREN...EVER!!! SO I WALKED UP TO THE SIDELINES AND STOOD BETWEEN MY SON AND HER. AND SHE WAS YELLING FOR HER TEAM AND SHE WAS LOUD, NEVER ONCE DID SHE CHEER ON THE OTHER TEAM. OH DID I MENTION THESE WERE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! YEAH! LITTLE BOYS! WE WONDER WHY OUR CHILDREN ARE SHOOTING EACH OTHER IN SCHOOLS OR DISRESPECTING POLICE OFFICERS? WELL LET'S LOOK AT THE SIDELINES OF A SOCCER GAME! WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TEACHING YOUR CHILDREN?!?!
I WENT TO ON ASK MY SON DURING THE GAME IF HE WAS SURE HE WANTED TO DO THIS JOB BECAUSE THESE PARENTS ARE CRAZY, WELL THAT GOT ALL THESE CRAZY PARENTS EVEN MORE CRAZY! THEY DECIDED TO GO AFTER ME, BUT I CAN HOLD MY OWN BECAUSE I HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT WITH ME ALWAYS. I WENT ON TO EXPLAIN TO THEM THAT THESE ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS, AND HOW THEY NEVER CHEERED ON THE OTHER TEAM, AND YELLING AT THE REF (ON HIS FIRST DAY) WAS UNACCEPTABLE, AND THEN AGAIN REMINDING THEM THEY ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! THEY BLAMED MY SON FOR ONE OF THE PLAYERS GETTING HURT, SO I WAS LIKE DID MY SON GO ON THE FIELD AND KICK HIM?? THAT DIDN'T GO OVER WELL. HAHAHA
ANOTHER PROBLEM I HAVE. WHY DON'T THEY DO THE HAND "HIGH FIVE" THING ANYMORE. YOU KNOW HOW THE TEAMS WALK ACROSS THE FIELDS TELLING EACH OTHER "GOOD JOB". NONE OF THAT HAPPENING, I WAS APPALLED! THIS IS WHY THERE IS BULLYING AND FIGHTING IN SCHOOL! BUT THE BEST WAS WHEN I WALKED AWAY, THE "MOM" WITH THE LEGGINGS, TIGHT PINK SHIRT, AND BLEACH BLONDE SPIKY HAIR GOES, "BYE FELICIA"! HAHAHA! WHO SAYS THAT ANYMORE???? I JUST TURNED AN LOOKED AT HER IN CONFUSION. REALLY?
IF YOU ARE A SOCCER PARENT AND READING THIS, IT STARTS WITH YOU! PLEASE MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND INSPIRE YOUR CHILDREN AND THE OTHER CHILDREN. EVEN TRY TO INSPIRE THE COACHES AND ENCOURAGE THE TEENAGER REFEREES.
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
SHALL WE PICK APART ROMANS 3:23?
I HAVE SO MANY CRAZY THEORIES ABOUT CHURCH, BUT I THINK IT'S BECAUSE I'VE BEEN SO BURNED IN THE PAST. BUT EVEN GOD SAYS NOT TO PUT YOUR TRUST IN MAN. WE ARE TO PUT OUR TRUST IN GOD. GOD WILL NEVER LET US DOWN, BUT MAN WILL ALWAYS LET US DOWN. I THINK ROMANS 3:23 IS THE PERFECT VERSE THAT FITS THIS THINKING,
"FOR ALL HAVE SINNED AND FALL SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD".
IT DOESN'T SAY FOR ONE OR TWO HAVE SINNED, IT SAYS ALL OF US HAVE SINNED.
OUR PRIDE HOLDS US BACK FROM ADMITTING THAT WE ARE SINNERS. WHO WANTS TO BELIEVE THAT WE HAVE FAULTS??? I CAN NAME A FEW MEN IN MY LIFE AND IN THE PUBLIC EYE THAT DON'T WANT TO OWN THEIR FLAWS. BUT THE MINUTE WE OWN THEM AND ASK GOD FOR FORGIVENESS IT'S DONE!!! HE FORGIVES!!! HOW COOL IS THAT??? I TRY SO HARD TO DO THAT WITH MY CHILDREN AND OTHERS IN MY LIFE, THE MINUTE THEY SAY THEY'RE SORRY...BOOM! I FORGIVE THEM! BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M A DOORSTEP, JUST THE OPPOSITE. I'LL FORGIVE, BUT LEARN FROM IT AND DON'T DO IT AGAIN, YOU FEEL ME?!?!
AND THEN WE ALL FALL SHORT OF GOD. NO ONE, NOT ONE PERSON ON THIS PLANET HOLDS A CANDLE TO GOD. FALLING SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD MEANS GOD IS ALL MIGHTY, HE IS IT!!! THE BIG KAHUNA!!! THE END ALL THAT ENDS ALL!!! WE USED TO GO TO A CHURCH IN THIS VERY AFFLUENT AREA AND THIS CHURCH WAS A "MEGA-CHURCH". PASTOR JERRY JOHNSTON WAS HIS NAME AND I WOULD LIKE TO SAY HE LOVED THE LORD, BUT! BUT! HE LOVED HIMSELF A LOT MORE!!! AND HE LOVED HIS/OUR MONEY SO MUCH MORE! AND IT WAS UNFORTUNATE THAT MY HUSBAND AND I DIDN'T SEE THIS AND WE RAISED OUR CHILDREN IN THIS MEGA-CHURCH. OUR OLDER CHILDREN WOULD GO KICKING AND SCREAMING. NEVER ONCE DID WE EVER SHOW OUR CHILDREN ANY GRACE AND REALLY STOP TO HEAR THEM OUT, WE JUST THOUGHT IT WAS THE DEVIL, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT "PASTOR JERRY" SAID. ALONG WITH JERRY SAYING WE MUST DO A "MAKE UP TITHE", ONE BIG TITHE A YEAR ON ANY INCOME THAT WE NEVER TITHED ON BEFORE...IN OUR ENTIRE WORKING HISTORY! WE WERE TO GO THROUGH OUR TAX RECORDS AND LOOK OVER THEM AND THEN THE NEXT SUNDAY BRING IN OUR MONEY. REALLY?? WAS IT TO PAY OFF YOUR OR YOUR SON'S MULTI MILLION DOLLAR HOMES OR THAT NEW HEATED OUTDOOR POOL YOU JUST INSTALLED, PASTOR JERRY AND JEREMY JOHNSTON??? WHAT WAS CRAZY WAS I THINK WE WERE IN A CULT AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT!!! SEE THIS IS WHY ROMANS 3:23 IS SO IMPORTANT, EVEN PASTORS WILL LET YOU DOWN. DON'T PUT YOUR TRUST IN MAN, PUT IT IN JESUS. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.
"FOR ALL HAVE SINNED AND FALL SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD".
IT DOESN'T SAY FOR ONE OR TWO HAVE SINNED, IT SAYS ALL OF US HAVE SINNED.
OUR PRIDE HOLDS US BACK FROM ADMITTING THAT WE ARE SINNERS. WHO WANTS TO BELIEVE THAT WE HAVE FAULTS??? I CAN NAME A FEW MEN IN MY LIFE AND IN THE PUBLIC EYE THAT DON'T WANT TO OWN THEIR FLAWS. BUT THE MINUTE WE OWN THEM AND ASK GOD FOR FORGIVENESS IT'S DONE!!! HE FORGIVES!!! HOW COOL IS THAT??? I TRY SO HARD TO DO THAT WITH MY CHILDREN AND OTHERS IN MY LIFE, THE MINUTE THEY SAY THEY'RE SORRY...BOOM! I FORGIVE THEM! BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M A DOORSTEP, JUST THE OPPOSITE. I'LL FORGIVE, BUT LEARN FROM IT AND DON'T DO IT AGAIN, YOU FEEL ME?!?!
AND THEN WE ALL FALL SHORT OF GOD. NO ONE, NOT ONE PERSON ON THIS PLANET HOLDS A CANDLE TO GOD. FALLING SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD MEANS GOD IS ALL MIGHTY, HE IS IT!!! THE BIG KAHUNA!!! THE END ALL THAT ENDS ALL!!! WE USED TO GO TO A CHURCH IN THIS VERY AFFLUENT AREA AND THIS CHURCH WAS A "MEGA-CHURCH". PASTOR JERRY JOHNSTON WAS HIS NAME AND I WOULD LIKE TO SAY HE LOVED THE LORD, BUT! BUT! HE LOVED HIMSELF A LOT MORE!!! AND HE LOVED HIS/OUR MONEY SO MUCH MORE! AND IT WAS UNFORTUNATE THAT MY HUSBAND AND I DIDN'T SEE THIS AND WE RAISED OUR CHILDREN IN THIS MEGA-CHURCH. OUR OLDER CHILDREN WOULD GO KICKING AND SCREAMING. NEVER ONCE DID WE EVER SHOW OUR CHILDREN ANY GRACE AND REALLY STOP TO HEAR THEM OUT, WE JUST THOUGHT IT WAS THE DEVIL, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT "PASTOR JERRY" SAID. ALONG WITH JERRY SAYING WE MUST DO A "MAKE UP TITHE", ONE BIG TITHE A YEAR ON ANY INCOME THAT WE NEVER TITHED ON BEFORE...IN OUR ENTIRE WORKING HISTORY! WE WERE TO GO THROUGH OUR TAX RECORDS AND LOOK OVER THEM AND THEN THE NEXT SUNDAY BRING IN OUR MONEY. REALLY?? WAS IT TO PAY OFF YOUR OR YOUR SON'S MULTI MILLION DOLLAR HOMES OR THAT NEW HEATED OUTDOOR POOL YOU JUST INSTALLED, PASTOR JERRY AND JEREMY JOHNSTON??? WHAT WAS CRAZY WAS I THINK WE WERE IN A CULT AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT!!! SEE THIS IS WHY ROMANS 3:23 IS SO IMPORTANT, EVEN PASTORS WILL LET YOU DOWN. DON'T PUT YOUR TRUST IN MAN, PUT IT IN JESUS. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.
Thursday, September 10, 2015
LET'S JUST KEEP THIS REAL...SHALL WE???
SO I KNOW THAT I'VE NOT BEEN BLOGGING LATELY, BUT I GUESS YOU COULD SAY I'VE BEEN "OBSERVING". AND HONESTLY, I'M JUST SO FRUSTRATED AT THE SOME OF THE BEHAVIORS OF THE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD! I HAVE SOME STORIES I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE BUT I HAVE TO KEEP THIS SOMEWHAT SHORT. MAYBE MY NEXT BLOGS WILL BE THE ENCOUNTERS I HAVE HAD WITH THE JERK OFFS THAT WERE PUT IN MY PATH. YEAH, I THINK THAT IS WHAT I'LL DO. THIS BLOG WILL BE THE SET UP, MY RANT (IF YOU WILL) ABOUT HOW I FEEL AND MAYBE EVEN SOME SOLUTIONS FOR ALL THIS CHAOS.
LET ME START BY SAYING TO ALL OF YOU WHOM BEEN READING MY BLOG KNOW THAT I'M A JESUS FREAK! I LOVE MY GOD, AND ASK ALMOST MINUTELY FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT TO GIVE ME STRENGTH AND GRACE. I DON'T ALWAYS HAVE GRACE, BUT I'M WORKING ON THAT. I AM VERY QUICK WITH MY WORDS, AND THAT USED TO GET ME IN TROUBLE. BUT ASKING THE HOLY SPIRIT TO OPEN MY EYES, GIVE ME STRENGTH, AND MY WORDS I BELIEVE MY WORDS CAN BE HARSH BUT THOSE WORDS ARE WHAT SOME PEOPLE NEED TO HEAR AT THAT PRESENT TIME. I'M NOT SAYING THAT I'M JESUS, BUT EVEN JESUS GOT ANGRY WHEN HE WENT TO THE TEMPLE AND THERE WAS A MARKET. IN EPHESIANS 4 PAUL SAYS IT'S OK TO GET ANGRY, BUT DON'T USE IS AS REVENGE AND DON'T STAY ANGRY, THAT IS WHEN YOU ARE ALLOWING THE DEVIL INTO YOUR LIFE.
I'M UPSET ABOUT THE WAY PEOPLE ARE TREATING EACH OTHER, AND ESPECIALLY THE WAY THE MEN IN MY FAMILY TREAT THE WOMEN IN OUR FAMILY!!! LET'S JUST START THERE! I'M MARRIED TO A PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE MAN AND IN MY OPINION THAT IS A FORM OF MENTAL ABUSE. BUT NOT JUST ABUSE AGAINST ME, ABUSE AGAINST HIMSELF. HOW SAD IS IT THAT HE JUST CAN'T COME OUT AND TELL ME THAT SOMETHING OFFENDED HIM? INSTEAD HE HAS TO GO AROUND THE ISSUE AND "WORD JAB". I WOULD LIKE TO THINK THIS DOESN'T MAKE HIM FEEL GOOD ABOUT HIMSELF, AT LEAST I HOPE IT DOESN'T. I WOULDN'T KNOW BECAUSE I'M NOT THAT WAY, IF I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH SOMEONE I GO RIGHT TO THAT SOURCE. I SEE PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE A THE START OF CANCER. IF YOU ALLOW THAT ANGER TO GROW INSIDE OF YOU IT'S GOING TO TAKE OVER. THAT CAN'T BE GOOD.
I'M GOING TO LEAVE YOU WITH THESE WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT FROM PAUL FROM THE BOOK OF EPHESIANS 5: 22-33
"Wives, understand and support your husbands in ways that show your support for Christ. The husband provides leadership to his wife the way Christ does to his church, not by domineering but by cherishing. So just as the church submits to Christ as he exercises such leadership, wives should likewise submit to their husbands.
25-28 Husbands, go all out in your love for your wives, exactly as Christ did for the church—a love marked by giving, not getting. Christ’s love makes the church whole. His words evoke her beauty. Everything he does and says is designed to bring the best out of her, dressing her in dazzling white silk, radiant with holiness. And that is how husbands ought to love their wives. They’re really doing themselves a favor—since they’re already “one” in marriage.
29-33 No one abuses his own body, does he? No, he feeds and pampers it. That’s how Christ treats us, the church, since we are part of his body. And this is why a man leaves father and mother and cherishes his wife. No longer two, they become “one flesh.” This is a huge mystery, and I don’t pretend to understand it all. What is clearest to me is the way Christ treats the church. And this provides a good picture of how each husband is to treat his wife, loving himself in loving her, and how each wife is to honor her husband."
IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN
Saturday, August 8, 2015
BE PATIENT....YEAH RIGHT!?!?!?
PATIENCE HAS TO BE ONE OF THE THINGS I TRULY LACK. HONESTLY, I HATE IT!! I WANT THINGS DONE AND I WANT THEM DONE NOW! BUT IN THE LAST FEW DAYS I HAVE BEEN TAUGHT THAT I AM IN TRUE NEED OF IT. THAT IS NOT TO BE SAID THAT THERE ARE NOT OTHER THINGS THAT GO ALONG WITH THAT. IN ORDER TO HAVE PATIENCE I BELIEVE ONE MUST HAVE GRACE, HUMILITY, AND MOST OF ALL THE MOST IMPORTANT...LOVE. ALL THESE THINGS INTER-TWINE TOGETHER AND YOU CAN'T HAVE ONE WITHOUT THE OTHER.
YESTERDAY MY SON HAD A FRIEND WHOM GOT SLOPPY/SCARY WASTED DRUNK THE NIGHT BEFORE. IT WAS CLOSE TO ALCOHOL POISONING, AND THEY THOUGHT THAT THEY COULD HANDLE AN ADULT SITUATION EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE CHILDREN. IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT, AND I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT THEY LEARNED THEIR LESSON. BUT THAT'S NOT MY POINT, OF COURSE THERE IS MORE TO MY STORY. SEE I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS BOY WHO DID THIS, AND HE HAS BEEN DOING STUPID STUFF LIKE THIS FOR AWHILE NOW. AND I FINALLY GOT TO SPEAK WITH HIS PARENTS AND HIM ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON.
THE BOY IS MAD, HE'S PISSED AT THE WORLD THINKING THAT EVERYONE "HAS EVERYTHING AND HE HAS NOTHING". THIS IS WHAT OUR WORLD HAS COME TO, JUDGEMENT OF A LIFE BY A 1 SECOND PICTURE. THESE KIDS THINK THAT, "IF A PERSON IS SMILING IN A PICTURE THEY MUST BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME". BUT THAT IS NOT TRUE AND I THINK ADULTS ARE GUILTY OF THAT ALSO. WE ARE JUDGING PEOPLE'S LIVES BY A 1 SECOND PICTURE AND THEN COMPARING IT TO OUR DAILY, MINUTE BY MINUTE LIVES. WE CAN'T DO THAT!!!! BUT WE HAVE BEEN TRAINED TO DO THAT. IT'S TIME TO TAKE OUR LIVES BACK!!! IT'S TIME TO TAKE OUR CHILDREN BACK!!!
I THINK THESE KIDS ARE TESTING PARENTS TO SEE JUST HOW MUCH THEY LOVE THEM. AND WE ARE FAILING THEM. I'M GUILTY OF IT. MY OLDEST SON DID THE SAME THING AND WE KICKED HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE HIS SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL. WE'RE JUST LUCKY THAT HIS GIRLFRIEND'S FAMILY WAS GRACIOUS ENOUGH TO TAKE HIM IN AND SEE THAT HE GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL. I WAS YOUNG AND HONESTLY I HAD NO IDEA HOW TO RAISE NATE BECAUSE I WAS A CHILD MYSELF. NATE AND I ARE 16 YEARS APART, WE ADOPTED HIM WHEN HE WAS 7 YEARS OLD. HE IS MY BIOLOGICAL NEPHEW (MY SISTER'S SON) BUT MY TRUE SON. AND OF ALL PEOPLE TO DISAPPOINT HIM BY KICKING HIM OUT WAS ME. I HAVE SO MUCH SHAME. I ASKED HIM FOR FORGIVENESS AND HE DID GRANT IT, BUT THE DAMAGE IS DONE. I CAN ONLY BUILD IT UP FROM THERE.
MY POINT IS PARENTS YOU GET ONE CHANCE AT THIS PARENTING THING. DO YOUR BEST. THERE IS NO ROOM FOR PRIDE AND "BEING RIGHT". TEACH YOUR CHILDREN LOVE, GRACE, HUMILITY, AND PATIENCE. GOD BLESS
YESTERDAY MY SON HAD A FRIEND WHOM GOT SLOPPY/SCARY WASTED DRUNK THE NIGHT BEFORE. IT WAS CLOSE TO ALCOHOL POISONING, AND THEY THOUGHT THAT THEY COULD HANDLE AN ADULT SITUATION EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE CHILDREN. IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT, AND I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT THEY LEARNED THEIR LESSON. BUT THAT'S NOT MY POINT, OF COURSE THERE IS MORE TO MY STORY. SEE I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS BOY WHO DID THIS, AND HE HAS BEEN DOING STUPID STUFF LIKE THIS FOR AWHILE NOW. AND I FINALLY GOT TO SPEAK WITH HIS PARENTS AND HIM ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON.
THE BOY IS MAD, HE'S PISSED AT THE WORLD THINKING THAT EVERYONE "HAS EVERYTHING AND HE HAS NOTHING". THIS IS WHAT OUR WORLD HAS COME TO, JUDGEMENT OF A LIFE BY A 1 SECOND PICTURE. THESE KIDS THINK THAT, "IF A PERSON IS SMILING IN A PICTURE THEY MUST BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME". BUT THAT IS NOT TRUE AND I THINK ADULTS ARE GUILTY OF THAT ALSO. WE ARE JUDGING PEOPLE'S LIVES BY A 1 SECOND PICTURE AND THEN COMPARING IT TO OUR DAILY, MINUTE BY MINUTE LIVES. WE CAN'T DO THAT!!!! BUT WE HAVE BEEN TRAINED TO DO THAT. IT'S TIME TO TAKE OUR LIVES BACK!!! IT'S TIME TO TAKE OUR CHILDREN BACK!!!
I THINK THESE KIDS ARE TESTING PARENTS TO SEE JUST HOW MUCH THEY LOVE THEM. AND WE ARE FAILING THEM. I'M GUILTY OF IT. MY OLDEST SON DID THE SAME THING AND WE KICKED HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE HIS SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL. WE'RE JUST LUCKY THAT HIS GIRLFRIEND'S FAMILY WAS GRACIOUS ENOUGH TO TAKE HIM IN AND SEE THAT HE GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL. I WAS YOUNG AND HONESTLY I HAD NO IDEA HOW TO RAISE NATE BECAUSE I WAS A CHILD MYSELF. NATE AND I ARE 16 YEARS APART, WE ADOPTED HIM WHEN HE WAS 7 YEARS OLD. HE IS MY BIOLOGICAL NEPHEW (MY SISTER'S SON) BUT MY TRUE SON. AND OF ALL PEOPLE TO DISAPPOINT HIM BY KICKING HIM OUT WAS ME. I HAVE SO MUCH SHAME. I ASKED HIM FOR FORGIVENESS AND HE DID GRANT IT, BUT THE DAMAGE IS DONE. I CAN ONLY BUILD IT UP FROM THERE.
MY POINT IS PARENTS YOU GET ONE CHANCE AT THIS PARENTING THING. DO YOUR BEST. THERE IS NO ROOM FOR PRIDE AND "BEING RIGHT". TEACH YOUR CHILDREN LOVE, GRACE, HUMILITY, AND PATIENCE. GOD BLESS
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
WHY DO PEOPLE TALK LIKE THAT
I WAS LISTENING TO "BOTT" RADIO AND ON THIS PARTICULAR RADIO SHOW THE HOST WAS INTERVIEWING SOME AUTHOR OF OVER 70 BOOKS, WHICH IS TOTALLY IMPRESSIVE. BUT WHEN HE WAS GIVING HIS ANSWER IT WAS SO "SCHOLARLY". IT WASN'T FOR THE LAYMAN, YOU KNOW? I THINK THAT PEOPLE FORGET THAT THE PEOPLE WHO NEED GOD ARE NOT SCHOLARS OR SUPER SMART AND CAN UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOUR SUPER COOL WORDS. WE ARE JUST NORMAL PEOPLE IN DESIRE OF NORMAL WORDS TO TEACH US WHAT GOD MEANS. PERIOD! DONE! THAT'S IT! BUT THE PEOPLE IN THE LIME-LIGHT ARE SO GOBBLED UP BY THE NEED TO SOUND LIKE THEY KNOW "IT" THAT THEY FORGET WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT. WHAT IS IMPORTANT IS THE LOVE OF GOD AND THE SAVING OF SOULS!!!!
AS I WAS LISTENING TO THIS RADIO SHOW I WAS IMAGINING IF I WAS NOT A CHRISTIAN AND DIDN'T GET GOD. WHAT I WOULD THINK? I THINK I WOULD REALLY THINK THAT THESE CHRISTIANS WERE SNOTS!!! I WOULD THINK THAT THEY WERE PRETENTIOUS AND "KNOW IT ALLS". HERE'S THE DEAL! SOCIETY NEEDS CHRISTIANS THAT GET GOD BUT ALSO GET PEOPLE, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?!?!? THAT IS IMPERATIVE!!! THE ONLY WAY TO REACH PEOPLE IS TO HUMBLE, TO BE OUR REAL SELVES AND PUT OURSELVES IN THEIR SHOES. YOU KNOW WALK A MILE IN THEIR SHOES, I BELIEVE IN THAT COMPLETELY.
I THINK PEOPLE NEED TO STOP TRYING TO BE SOMETHING THAT THEY ARE NOT, IT'S TIME TO GET REAL! THIS LAST SUNDAY AT CHURCH OUR PASTOR LET HIS 22 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER PREACH AND IT WAS AWESOME!! SHE TRULY HAS THAT GIFT, AND SHE SAID SOMETHING THAT SHOOK ME UP, WELL ONE OF MANY THINGS. BUT THIS ONE THING SHE SAID;
PEOPLE ARE SO BUSY TRYING TO IMPRESS OTHERS THAT IT IS CAUSING INTIMIDATION AND INSECURITY. ALL START WITH THE WORD "I"
I WOULD LIKE WHOM EVER IS READING THIS TO STOP AND THINK ABOUT THAT. LET US STOP THINKING ABOUT OURSELVES AND START THINKING ABOUT OTHERS. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS. NOW GO MAKE GOOD CHOICES. GOD BLESS
AS I WAS LISTENING TO THIS RADIO SHOW I WAS IMAGINING IF I WAS NOT A CHRISTIAN AND DIDN'T GET GOD. WHAT I WOULD THINK? I THINK I WOULD REALLY THINK THAT THESE CHRISTIANS WERE SNOTS!!! I WOULD THINK THAT THEY WERE PRETENTIOUS AND "KNOW IT ALLS". HERE'S THE DEAL! SOCIETY NEEDS CHRISTIANS THAT GET GOD BUT ALSO GET PEOPLE, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?!?!? THAT IS IMPERATIVE!!! THE ONLY WAY TO REACH PEOPLE IS TO HUMBLE, TO BE OUR REAL SELVES AND PUT OURSELVES IN THEIR SHOES. YOU KNOW WALK A MILE IN THEIR SHOES, I BELIEVE IN THAT COMPLETELY.
I THINK PEOPLE NEED TO STOP TRYING TO BE SOMETHING THAT THEY ARE NOT, IT'S TIME TO GET REAL! THIS LAST SUNDAY AT CHURCH OUR PASTOR LET HIS 22 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER PREACH AND IT WAS AWESOME!! SHE TRULY HAS THAT GIFT, AND SHE SAID SOMETHING THAT SHOOK ME UP, WELL ONE OF MANY THINGS. BUT THIS ONE THING SHE SAID;
PEOPLE ARE SO BUSY TRYING TO IMPRESS OTHERS THAT IT IS CAUSING INTIMIDATION AND INSECURITY. ALL START WITH THE WORD "I"
I WOULD LIKE WHOM EVER IS READING THIS TO STOP AND THINK ABOUT THAT. LET US STOP THINKING ABOUT OURSELVES AND START THINKING ABOUT OTHERS. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS. NOW GO MAKE GOOD CHOICES. GOD BLESS
Saturday, July 25, 2015
I PASSED MY PSYCH EVALUATION!!
I WANT TO START OFF BY SAYING THAT I MADE SOME HUGE MISTAKES ABOUT WHAT I SAID IN THE PREVIOUS POSTS ABOUT GOD GIVING ME THE GIFT OF CLAIRVOYANCE. I WAS COMPLETELY WRONG AND IT TOOK MY FAMILY TO TAKE ME TO A HOSPITAL FOR A PSYCH EVALUATION FOR ME TO FIGURE IT OUT. THANK YOU JESUS, IN JESUS'S NAME AMEN.
I TOLD MIKE THAT I WOULD GO TO THE HOSPITAL FOR HIM, TO GIVE HIM COMFORT IN THE FACT THAT I''M NOT CRAZY, THAT THIS IS THE LORD. AND I SAID, "IF YOU SEE THAT I'M NOT CRAZY WILL YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS GOD?" AND YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID? "MAYBE" HOW DO YOU SAY MAYBE TO SOMETHING LIKE THAT? BUT NONE THE OTHER HE DID SAY IT.
SO MY SOCIAL WORKER AT THE HOSPITAL THAT WAS ASSIGNED TO GIVE ME MY EVALUATION HAPPENED TO BE AN ORDAINED MINISTER, THANK YOU LORD! AND SHE HELPED ME FIGURE OUT WHAT IS GOING ON. JERRI EXPLAINED ABOUT THE LIGHT AND MY GIFTS AND TOLD ME TO GET IN THE WORD AND WATCH THE FRUITS OF MY LABOR. IF THE FRUITS OF THE LABOR END WITH DESPAIR THEN IT WAS NOT OF GOD. JERRI SAID THAT I'M A CHILD RIGHT NOW IN MY FAITH WALK AND I NEED TO GET INTO THE "MEAT" OF THE WORD, GOD, FAITH. I NEED TO CALM MY MIND BECAUSE RIGHT NOW IT'S LIKE I'M INTOXICATED ON THE HOLY SPIRIT. BUT IF YOU DON'T CONTROL IT THAT WILL GO OUT. IT IS MY GOAL TO LEARN HOW NOT TO LEARN TO LET THAT HEAT/FLAME BURN OUT. AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE I CAN HELP MY FAMILY OR OTHERS.
WHEN I SPOKE ABOUT THAT LIGHT IN MY EARLIER POSTS, THAT WAS THE HOLY SPIRIT. I WAS SAVED ON SEPTEMBER 9, 1992 BUT A WEEK AGO I WAS FILLED WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT. AND BOTH ARE WONDERFUL BUT THE HOLY SPIRIT WILL GIVE YOU YOUR GIFTS AND THEN IT IS UP TO YOU TO GET INTO THE WORD AND LEARN HOW TO USE IT. THE MORE YOU USE YOUR GIFT THE MORE GOD WILL TALK TO YOU. THE MORE YOU WILL BE ENTRUSTED WITH MORE GIFTS. HOW WONDERFUL IS THAT?!? AND TO KNOW THAT IF I JUST ASK GOD TO HELP ME WITH MY WORDS AND THOUGHTS WHEN I GET CAUGHT UP IN A DEBATE AND HE DOES IS SO CALMING.
I'M NOT CLAIRVOYANT, I WAS GIVEN THE GIFT OF PROPHECY. BUT I REALLY WANTED TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO SPIRITS, SO I TOOK IT UPON MYSELF TO GIVE MYSELF THAT GIFT. LIFE DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT. IF YOU TAKE IT UPON YOURSELF TO MAKE UP SPIRITUAL GIFTS YOU ARE GOING TO FAIL. BE STILL AND LET GOD. I KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS NOW. I CAN READ THE BIBLE AND UNDERSTAND IT. I ASKED GOD WHAT BOOK I SHOULD BE IN AND HE SAID HEBREWS. I'VE NEVER READ HEBREWS BEFORE, BUT IT'S ABOUT PROPHECY AND HOW IMPORTANT IT IS FOR SOULS TO BE WON OVER FOR GOD. SALVATION IS MORE IMPORTANT NOW THAN EVER BEFORE, WE'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME.
I THINK THAT IS ONE OF MY MISSIONS, WITH THE GUIDANCE OF GOD I WILL TURN PEOPLE OVER TO GOD AND GET THEM TO HEAVEN. I LOVE YOU LORD, IN JESUS'S NAME AMEN.
Friday, July 24, 2015
TO GET TO ME YOU MUST GO THROUGH HIM
I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME WARNINGS AND DISCLOSURES BEFORE YOU START TO READ MY BLOG. FIRST OF ALL; 1. I WRITE LIKE I TALK , SO KEEP UP 2. I WILL HAVE TYPOS, NOT SURE HOW BAD BUT I'M SURE YOU CAN DEAL WITH FIGURING IT OUT AND NOT POP A BLOOD VESSEL. 3. I MIGHT REPEAT MYSELF, IT JUST MEANS IT WAS IMPORTANT OR I FORGOT I ALREADY TOLD YOU. 4. YOU MAY COMMENT ON THIS BUT IT MUST BE BUT IN A KIND WAY. I DON'T CARE IF YOU WRITE THE MEANEST THING TO ME, BUT IT MUST BE PRESENTED IN A KIND WAY. AND FINALLY 5. I WILL BE CHANGING NAMES, THIS IS ALL FICTIONAL (MAYBE/MAYBE NOT) NO IT IS. PLEASE BE POLITE TO ME, IF NOT FOR ME, DO IT FOR YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU DO TEND TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF WHEN THERE IS A PROBLEM WITH SOMETHING AND IT WAS SOLVED IN A NICE WAY. IT FEELS SO GOOD. I WON'T EDIT THIS, I BELIEVE in THE SUB-CONSCIOUS. THE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS COME OUT IN "TYPOS".
I HAVE A WONDERFUL THERAPIST NAMED GARY AND SINCE I STARTED SEEING HIM MY LIFE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED. WE FIGURED OUT THAT I HAVE A WOUNDED LITTLE 16 YEAR OLD IN ME. I KNEW SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED TO ME BUT I BLAMED IT ON THE WRONG PERSON. WELL, FINALLY MY SUB-CONSCIOUS HAS PUT THE MEMORY TO THE FOREFRONT OF MY MIND. IT IS ONE OF THE MOST VIOLENT AND DISTURBING CRIMINAL ACTS THAT THERE COULD BE. TOGETHER YOU CAN I WILL BE DOCUMENTING MY JOURNEY OF SELF RECONCILIATION. I HAD TO COME TOGETHER, I'M LIVING TWO WORLDS IN MY HEAD AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT. MY GUESS ON HOW IT ALL STARTED WAS ONE DAY I WAS LAYING IN MY BED AND I WAS IN THAT HALF AWAKE AND HALF ASLEEP STATE AND I WAS TALKING TO THESE GRAY SPIRITS.
I STOPPED THEM AND SAID THAT THE ONLY WAY THEY CAN TALK TO ME IS THROUGH MY LORD JESUS CHRIST. AND A LARGE WHITE WARM LIGHT CAME ONE ME ON MY UPPER RIGHT SIDE. IT WAS SUCH A WARM AND LOVING LIGHT. I HUGGED THE LIGHT. AND I WAS SO HAPPY. SOMETHING ALWAYS BRINGS ME BACK TO GOD. NOW I'M TALKING TO SPIRITS, BUT I'M NOT SURE IF I AM OR I'M CRAZY. LIKE GOD GAVE ME THE GIFT OF CLAIRVOYANCE. AND GREG SAID THAT HE HAS HEARD THAT THE LORD DOES GIVE US THE GIFTS LIKE THAT. THAT WAS THE MOMENT I BELIEVE I WAS TRULY SAVED AND WAS A CHILD OF GOD
IT'S NOT A BAD THING TO SPEAK WITH THE SPIRIT SIDE, BUT BEFORE YOU DO TALK TO THEM YOU MUST TELL THEM THEY HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE LORD TO GET TO YOU, IN THE NAME OF JESUS, AMEN. THAT IS ALSO A WAY TO MAKE SURE THE EVIL ONES KNOW NOT TO MESS WITH YOU. AFTER I GRABBED THAT LIGHT MY LIFE HAS CHANGED, BUT FOR THE BETTER. COME WITH ME FOR THE TRIP!
I HAVE A WONDERFUL THERAPIST NAMED GARY AND SINCE I STARTED SEEING HIM MY LIFE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED. WE FIGURED OUT THAT I HAVE A WOUNDED LITTLE 16 YEAR OLD IN ME. I KNEW SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED TO ME BUT I BLAMED IT ON THE WRONG PERSON. WELL, FINALLY MY SUB-CONSCIOUS HAS PUT THE MEMORY TO THE FOREFRONT OF MY MIND. IT IS ONE OF THE MOST VIOLENT AND DISTURBING CRIMINAL ACTS THAT THERE COULD BE. TOGETHER YOU CAN I WILL BE DOCUMENTING MY JOURNEY OF SELF RECONCILIATION. I HAD TO COME TOGETHER, I'M LIVING TWO WORLDS IN MY HEAD AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT. MY GUESS ON HOW IT ALL STARTED WAS ONE DAY I WAS LAYING IN MY BED AND I WAS IN THAT HALF AWAKE AND HALF ASLEEP STATE AND I WAS TALKING TO THESE GRAY SPIRITS.
I STOPPED THEM AND SAID THAT THE ONLY WAY THEY CAN TALK TO ME IS THROUGH MY LORD JESUS CHRIST. AND A LARGE WHITE WARM LIGHT CAME ONE ME ON MY UPPER RIGHT SIDE. IT WAS SUCH A WARM AND LOVING LIGHT. I HUGGED THE LIGHT. AND I WAS SO HAPPY. SOMETHING ALWAYS BRINGS ME BACK TO GOD. NOW I'M TALKING TO SPIRITS, BUT I'M NOT SURE IF I AM OR I'M CRAZY. LIKE GOD GAVE ME THE GIFT OF CLAIRVOYANCE. AND GREG SAID THAT HE HAS HEARD THAT THE LORD DOES GIVE US THE GIFTS LIKE THAT. THAT WAS THE MOMENT I BELIEVE I WAS TRULY SAVED AND WAS A CHILD OF GOD
IT'S NOT A BAD THING TO SPEAK WITH THE SPIRIT SIDE, BUT BEFORE YOU DO TALK TO THEM YOU MUST TELL THEM THEY HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE LORD TO GET TO YOU, IN THE NAME OF JESUS, AMEN. THAT IS ALSO A WAY TO MAKE SURE THE EVIL ONES KNOW NOT TO MESS WITH YOU. AFTER I GRABBED THAT LIGHT MY LIFE HAS CHANGED, BUT FOR THE BETTER. COME WITH ME FOR THE TRIP!
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