I don't understand why some Religious leaders have to make God so hard. My first point, Religion is man made, Christianity is Christ made. They make it almost impossible to live a day to day Christian life and have any thought of your own without thinking it's a sin. That is not at all what God is. And it's my goal to make God understandable by a middle class, sinful, mother, and humbled wife that loves her Lord just as much as she loves her husband. If I can understand the gifts that God gives us then you can too.
I think there's some verbiage from God that "offends" people. We are combative beings by nature. Always wanting things we can't have or more of something. And wanting to be first. We are combative people that are competing against each other constantly. Are we always wanting to be like "Adam"? The first one on earth? I don't know, maybe that is reading too much into the Bible.
But we get in that competitive nature when we think about "How dare God declare He be the only God!" and "That we worship only Him?" We are rebellious by nature also. Look at how Eve rebelled against God and Adam with the apple. Maybe it isn't us being rebellious at all. Maybe it is us standing up for something that you think is important. Be it good or bad.
But are men only rebellious because of women? Did women introduce men to "rebellion"? If women were never created by God would there still be peace on earth? whooooaaaa.... too deep.
My point is, we as human beings rebelled and competed against God. Sin was introduced with Adam and Eve. God knows that we are sinners and not perfect. God only put Jesus down on earth as a perfect person. But we are all children of God's just like Jesus if we declare that God sent Jesus down to earth to die for us.
During all those times in the Old Testament when they talk about the sacrifices to God over and over again. They would talk about rams, cows, and goats being blood sacrifices. Well this time when Jesus died, God was the one doing the sacrificing for us.
Like how Abraham took Isaac to the top of the hill to be sacrificed because told him to. And just when Abraham was going to kill Isaac, just as Abraham raised that blade getting his strength and will power up to kill his only son....God said, "NO! STOP!" God told Abraham what a great job he did and how he his new name is now Abraham (his old name was Abram), God gave him all of what is now Israel and some, Abraham and his wife Sarah ended up having all these kids (and Sarah and Abraham were not young at all).
God put Jesus on the cross and Jesus had to die so we could have a relationship directly with God.
Jesus had to suffer in place of us.
* That means the "suffering" He had would be one of your sins. So say you got an abortion. (I don't care what side of the fence you are on, it is a sin legal or not) and say you don't ask Jesus for forgiveness for that abortion. And you just go about your life. One of those whippings or punches to His jaw will be because of you. I hope that helps clear up the action and meaning of "suffering".*
That is why He was tortured. The whippings and beating Jesus was inflicted with,...they were our sins.
Friday, January 29, 2016
Do I Offend?
Why do people get offended when you bring up God to them? I don't get it! People don't get offended when we talk about a top local news stories. Do you understand what I'm saying to you? I can talk to someone about the Kardashian's and most would get all up in that conversation. But if I were to bring up God and what He has done in my life...those same people would be like, "Oh NO! I don't want to hear it." or "That's good for you." or "God? God Who?" or worse, "Who is your God?" Like there is actually more than one God!
I hate to tell you all this but there is only one (1) God. That's it! No more than that. We have made more Gods ourselves, like Buddha, Allah, and so on but those Gods were made up by us. They never created the earth and the planets. They didn't create anything, that is why if you follow one of those "man-made" gods you never find that inner peace you are searching for. The only way to find that peace that we are all yearning for is with the one true God...Jesus Christ...The Holy Spirit...The Trinity
You see God is where you will find true solitude. God loves you, He knows everything about you and STILL loves you! He knows you so well that He knows how many hairs are on your head, even if your are bald, He knew how many hairs used to be on your head. This is the kind of love that you are wanting from your spouse. The kind of love that you are constantly asking your significant loved one to give you. I get that because I used to do that to my husband. I used to say things like, "why can't you show me affection?" "if you loved me you would hold my hand" I did that kind of stuff to him all the time.
But you see, my husband is just a person, and not a God. I had to get true acceptance from God first before I could love or be loved. Once I accepted God's love and truly understood what that meant, I was able to let Mike love me the way Mike wanted to, and not the way I was wanting him to. By me allowing God to love me first, it took the pressure of failure off of Mike. It was the failure of not loving me correctly that I was putting on Mike. And in turn I am able to love Mike completely with all my heart.
I hate to tell you all this but there is only one (1) God. That's it! No more than that. We have made more Gods ourselves, like Buddha, Allah, and so on but those Gods were made up by us. They never created the earth and the planets. They didn't create anything, that is why if you follow one of those "man-made" gods you never find that inner peace you are searching for. The only way to find that peace that we are all yearning for is with the one true God...Jesus Christ...The Holy Spirit...The Trinity
You see God is where you will find true solitude. God loves you, He knows everything about you and STILL loves you! He knows you so well that He knows how many hairs are on your head, even if your are bald, He knew how many hairs used to be on your head. This is the kind of love that you are wanting from your spouse. The kind of love that you are constantly asking your significant loved one to give you. I get that because I used to do that to my husband. I used to say things like, "why can't you show me affection?" "if you loved me you would hold my hand" I did that kind of stuff to him all the time.
But you see, my husband is just a person, and not a God. I had to get true acceptance from God first before I could love or be loved. Once I accepted God's love and truly understood what that meant, I was able to let Mike love me the way Mike wanted to, and not the way I was wanting him to. By me allowing God to love me first, it took the pressure of failure off of Mike. It was the failure of not loving me correctly that I was putting on Mike. And in turn I am able to love Mike completely with all my heart.
Thursday, January 28, 2016
Damaged Goods
Do you ever feel like no one can ever love you? Like you don't deserve to have anyone love you. You feel that way because you don't love yourself. Just that easy and just that sad.
At my old job all us "smokers" would gather around the "smokers circle" and smoke. And it was the day after Halloween and people were talking about what they did and what they dressed up as. And one girl said that she pinned trash on a jogging suit and went to a party as "damaged goods". And everyone laughed but I thought how sad. I even gave her one of those, "ooohhhh, how sad" sounds. But that was a perfect example of why we think we are unlovable. It's because we are "damaged goods"
But here is what I have found out, the damaged goods we have are really our sins! Now stay with me, because people hear that word sin and automatically are turned off. Because the word sin is such a damning thing.
Sins are the things we do wrong, whether we know it or not. Or even if we remember it or not. When we do these wrong things, and don't ask for forgiveness from God we carry that sin. The word "carry" doesn't mean like carrying a bag of groceries. It's more like a spot of dirt on a perfectly brilliant white shirt. You know where one little spec of dirt doesn't matter, so you don't clean it right away. Then you get another spec of dirt. And then another, and another. These specs of dirt are weightless but they are weighing down the beauty of the white shirt.
All you have to do is ask God for forgiveness. Jesus died on the cross so we could have direct contact with God. Before the curtain tore (when Jesus died on the cross) you had to go through the priests that were in where the arc was. and you had to make sacrifices. But you see God did the ultimate sacrifice by having Jesus die on the cross. That is the meaning of John 3:16. God gave us a sacrifice instead of us giving Him one. He gave us Jesus so we could talk with God directly. And in order to be with God forever in Heaven is to admit that God did this for us!
That's it! Why do people make this so difficult?!?! It's not! Just pray to God that Jesus was the Son of God. That Jesus died on the cross for our sins. That you are a sinner, but by the blood of Jesus I am a child of God. I invite Jesus into my heart. I declare Jesus the Lord of Lords! In Jesus's Name, Amen
At my old job all us "smokers" would gather around the "smokers circle" and smoke. And it was the day after Halloween and people were talking about what they did and what they dressed up as. And one girl said that she pinned trash on a jogging suit and went to a party as "damaged goods". And everyone laughed but I thought how sad. I even gave her one of those, "ooohhhh, how sad" sounds. But that was a perfect example of why we think we are unlovable. It's because we are "damaged goods"
But here is what I have found out, the damaged goods we have are really our sins! Now stay with me, because people hear that word sin and automatically are turned off. Because the word sin is such a damning thing.
Sins are the things we do wrong, whether we know it or not. Or even if we remember it or not. When we do these wrong things, and don't ask for forgiveness from God we carry that sin. The word "carry" doesn't mean like carrying a bag of groceries. It's more like a spot of dirt on a perfectly brilliant white shirt. You know where one little spec of dirt doesn't matter, so you don't clean it right away. Then you get another spec of dirt. And then another, and another. These specs of dirt are weightless but they are weighing down the beauty of the white shirt.
All you have to do is ask God for forgiveness. Jesus died on the cross so we could have direct contact with God. Before the curtain tore (when Jesus died on the cross) you had to go through the priests that were in where the arc was. and you had to make sacrifices. But you see God did the ultimate sacrifice by having Jesus die on the cross. That is the meaning of John 3:16. God gave us a sacrifice instead of us giving Him one. He gave us Jesus so we could talk with God directly. And in order to be with God forever in Heaven is to admit that God did this for us!
That's it! Why do people make this so difficult?!?! It's not! Just pray to God that Jesus was the Son of God. That Jesus died on the cross for our sins. That you are a sinner, but by the blood of Jesus I am a child of God. I invite Jesus into my heart. I declare Jesus the Lord of Lords! In Jesus's Name, Amen
Sunday, December 20, 2015
IT TAKES JUST SECONDS
I'M LOSING MY MIND I'M TELLING YOU! I FORGET EVERYTHING! I LEFT A WAFFLE IN THE WAFFLE IRON FRIDAY MORNING AND TODAY I LEFT THE TEA ON THE STOVE AND NOW MY POT IS BURNT. URGH!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I KNOW THAT I HAVE TO GO IN FOR A MAMMOGRAM TOMORROW AND I'M A BIT FREAKED OUT ABOUT THAT. I'M GETTING A 3D ONE, BECAUSE MY INSURANCE PAYS FOR IT. AND I HAVE SOME ISSUES WITH MY BOOBS. BUT I'VE BEEN SICK, MY LIVER, PANCREAS, AND KIDNEYS ARE NOT DOING WELL AND I'M IN A BIT OF PAIN DUE TO THOSE NOT WORKING PROPERLY. PLEASE SAY A LITTLE PRAYER MY WAY IF YOU WOULD, THANK YOU.
AND LAST NIGHT WE HAD A MURDER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. IT WAS A HORRIBLE SENSELESS ACT. BUT AREN'T MOST MURDERS?!? A 23 YEAR OLD WAS KILLED FOR STANDING IN THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME. IT WAS A BAR FIGHT AT THIS LOCAL DIVE BAR, A MOTORCYCLE BAR. A ROUGH AND TOUGH BAR IF YOU WILL, AND THE KILLER GUY, GREG COOPER SWUNG A POOL CUE AT ANOTHER GUY, MISSED HIM AND HIT THIS 23 YEAR OLD IN THE HEAD AND KILLED HIM INSTANTLY. ISN'T THAT HORRIBLE! NOW MR. COOPER IS BOOKED ON CHARGES OF 2ND DEGREE MURDER AND HIS LIFE IS PRETTY MUCH OVER, IN 3 SECONDS OVER A BAD DECISION.
THAT'S ALL IT TAKES, JUST SECONDS TO RUIN YOUR LIFE. IT AMAZES ME EVERYDAY THE CHOICES PEOPLE MAKE, ME INCLUDED IN THAT STATEMENT. I SMOKE, AND I WOULD LOVE TO QUIT, BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT WITHDRAWAL. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT, IT'S THE TRUTH, PLUS I LIKE SMOKING IT GIVES ME COMFORT AND I DO SOME GREAT THINKING WHEN I'M OUTSIDE BY MYSELF SMOKING, AND KILLING MYSELF WITH EVERY PUFF, I KNOW! I KNOW! SO MY MESSAGE FOR EVERYONE TODAY IS THINK 2X OR 3X BEFORE SWINGING THAT POOL CUE, IS IT GOING TO BE WORTH SPENDING THE REST OF YOUR LIFE IN JAIL?
AND LAST NIGHT WE HAD A MURDER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. IT WAS A HORRIBLE SENSELESS ACT. BUT AREN'T MOST MURDERS?!? A 23 YEAR OLD WAS KILLED FOR STANDING IN THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME. IT WAS A BAR FIGHT AT THIS LOCAL DIVE BAR, A MOTORCYCLE BAR. A ROUGH AND TOUGH BAR IF YOU WILL, AND THE KILLER GUY, GREG COOPER SWUNG A POOL CUE AT ANOTHER GUY, MISSED HIM AND HIT THIS 23 YEAR OLD IN THE HEAD AND KILLED HIM INSTANTLY. ISN'T THAT HORRIBLE! NOW MR. COOPER IS BOOKED ON CHARGES OF 2ND DEGREE MURDER AND HIS LIFE IS PRETTY MUCH OVER, IN 3 SECONDS OVER A BAD DECISION.
THAT'S ALL IT TAKES, JUST SECONDS TO RUIN YOUR LIFE. IT AMAZES ME EVERYDAY THE CHOICES PEOPLE MAKE, ME INCLUDED IN THAT STATEMENT. I SMOKE, AND I WOULD LOVE TO QUIT, BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT WITHDRAWAL. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT, IT'S THE TRUTH, PLUS I LIKE SMOKING IT GIVES ME COMFORT AND I DO SOME GREAT THINKING WHEN I'M OUTSIDE BY MYSELF SMOKING, AND KILLING MYSELF WITH EVERY PUFF, I KNOW! I KNOW! SO MY MESSAGE FOR EVERYONE TODAY IS THINK 2X OR 3X BEFORE SWINGING THAT POOL CUE, IS IT GOING TO BE WORTH SPENDING THE REST OF YOUR LIFE IN JAIL?
Friday, December 18, 2015
I'VE NEVER BEEN ONE TO WORK
I HAD A JOB FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS UNTIL I WALKED OUT OF IT. LITERALLY, I WALKED OUT, WHICH I HAVE NEVER EVER DONE IN MY LIFE. I'LL TELL YOU LIFE IS WAY TO SHORT TO BE STRESSED OUT AND FRANTIC. I WORKED AT THIS LITTLE BAKERY AND CAFE IN MY SMALL TOWN HERE IN KANSAS. IT HAD ALL THE POTENTIAL OF BEING A HUGE SUCCESS BUT THERE WAS ONE THING IN ITS WAY....THE OWNER. SHE WAS A SCATTERED BRAINED, SASSY MOUTHED, "EVERYONE IS OUT TO GET ME" KIND OF PERSON. AND I HAD SOME SERIOUS WHIPLASH GOING ON WITH ALL OF HER MOOD SWINGS.
I CAN'T BASH ON MOOD SWINGS, I HAVE THEM TOO. HERE IS AN EXAMPLE, WHEN THE OWNER, WE WILL CALL HER BARBIE, HAD A CHANCE TO LEAVE EARLY FOR THE NIGHT TO BE WITH HER FAMILY, BARBIE DECIDED TO START A DELIVERY SERVICE...THAT NIGHT!!! REALLY? WHAT? BARBIE'S NOT ONLY IS THE OWNER BUT THE CHEF & THAT PARTICULAR NIGHT WE GOT SLAMMED. WE HAD 7 FAMILIES COME INTO OUR SMALL DINER ALL AT ONCE AND THE CHEF WAS GONE DOING "DELIVERIES". I HAD TO BE THE WAITRESS, COOK, CASHIER, & SELL ITEMS FROM THE FRONT CASE (BAKED GOODS). THEN WHEN BARBIE FINALLY CAME BACK SAW THAT IT WAS A BIT IN DISARRAY & HAD THE BALLS TO GET UPSET WITH ME! I QUIT THE NEXT DAY, I WALKED OUT OF THERE, NO I RAN OUT OF THERE.
BARBIE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES LIKE HOLLYWOOD STARS CHANGE SPOUSES. SHE BLAMES IT ON HER NOT BEING ABLE TO TRAIN PEOPLE, BUT REALLY SHE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES BECAUSE SHE IS SO HARD TO WORK WITH. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO WORK FOR HER. ONE MINUTE SHE IS PRAISING YOU THE NEXT YOU CAN DO NOTHING RIGHT. SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HER OLD EMPLOYEES THAT STOLE FROM HER! REALLY? I NEVER TOOK ANYTHING FROM THAT WOMAN, OR AS SHE PUT IT, "PUT A HAM IN MY ARM PIT". SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HEROIN USERS AND THIEVES MY FIRST WEEK OF WORKING THERE. THAT WASN'T TOO COOL.
AND WHY AM I TELLING YOU ALL THIS? IF YOU ARE A MANAGER OR EMPLOYER PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS TO YOUR EMPLOYEES. JUST BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE THAT WORKED FOR YOU WERE BAD, DOESN'T MEAN ALL PEOPLE ARE BAD. PLUS, YOU HIRED THEM, DON'T PUNISH ME FOR A MISTAKE THAT YOU DID. I WAS NEVER TRULY GIVEN A FAIR CHANCE AND THAT IS ON BARBIE NOT ME! I WOULD STILL BE THERE IF I WASN'T TAKEN FOR GRANTED, VERBALLY ABUSED, AND WORKED TO DEATH. THERE ARE TIMES THAT YOU HAVE TO WATCH OUT FOR YOURSELF AND THIS WAS ONE.
I CAN'T BASH ON MOOD SWINGS, I HAVE THEM TOO. HERE IS AN EXAMPLE, WHEN THE OWNER, WE WILL CALL HER BARBIE, HAD A CHANCE TO LEAVE EARLY FOR THE NIGHT TO BE WITH HER FAMILY, BARBIE DECIDED TO START A DELIVERY SERVICE...THAT NIGHT!!! REALLY? WHAT? BARBIE'S NOT ONLY IS THE OWNER BUT THE CHEF & THAT PARTICULAR NIGHT WE GOT SLAMMED. WE HAD 7 FAMILIES COME INTO OUR SMALL DINER ALL AT ONCE AND THE CHEF WAS GONE DOING "DELIVERIES". I HAD TO BE THE WAITRESS, COOK, CASHIER, & SELL ITEMS FROM THE FRONT CASE (BAKED GOODS). THEN WHEN BARBIE FINALLY CAME BACK SAW THAT IT WAS A BIT IN DISARRAY & HAD THE BALLS TO GET UPSET WITH ME! I QUIT THE NEXT DAY, I WALKED OUT OF THERE, NO I RAN OUT OF THERE.
BARBIE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES LIKE HOLLYWOOD STARS CHANGE SPOUSES. SHE BLAMES IT ON HER NOT BEING ABLE TO TRAIN PEOPLE, BUT REALLY SHE GOES THROUGH EMPLOYEES BECAUSE SHE IS SO HARD TO WORK WITH. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO WORK FOR HER. ONE MINUTE SHE IS PRAISING YOU THE NEXT YOU CAN DO NOTHING RIGHT. SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HER OLD EMPLOYEES THAT STOLE FROM HER! REALLY? I NEVER TOOK ANYTHING FROM THAT WOMAN, OR AS SHE PUT IT, "PUT A HAM IN MY ARM PIT". SHE WAS COMPARING ME TO HEROIN USERS AND THIEVES MY FIRST WEEK OF WORKING THERE. THAT WASN'T TOO COOL.
AND WHY AM I TELLING YOU ALL THIS? IF YOU ARE A MANAGER OR EMPLOYER PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS TO YOUR EMPLOYEES. JUST BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE THAT WORKED FOR YOU WERE BAD, DOESN'T MEAN ALL PEOPLE ARE BAD. PLUS, YOU HIRED THEM, DON'T PUNISH ME FOR A MISTAKE THAT YOU DID. I WAS NEVER TRULY GIVEN A FAIR CHANCE AND THAT IS ON BARBIE NOT ME! I WOULD STILL BE THERE IF I WASN'T TAKEN FOR GRANTED, VERBALLY ABUSED, AND WORKED TO DEATH. THERE ARE TIMES THAT YOU HAVE TO WATCH OUT FOR YOURSELF AND THIS WAS ONE.
Monday, October 12, 2015
LIFE IS FUNNY...
YOU KNOW I WAS DOING SO WELL, NOT HAVING ANY BAD ATTITUDES AND SUCH, BUT THEN LIFE HAPPENED. I HAVE A HARD TIME LIVING OUTSIDE OF MY EMOTIONAL MIND. I FIGHT DAILY FOR A WISE MIND. AND IF ANYONE OF YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH DBT THERAPY YOU WILL TOTALLY GET WHAT I'M SAYING. BUT I'M A GEMINI AND AM THE YOUNGEST IN MY FAMILY, SO I THINK IT IS JUST A GIVEN I'M GOING TO HAVE AN ATTITUDE. I SPEAK MY MIND BUT SOMETIMES THAT IS NOT A GOOD THING, AND SOMETIMES IT IS.
I STARTED A JOB A WEEK AGO IN A LITTLE LOCAL DINER/BAKERY. I'VE ONLY WORKED FOR A SMALL COMPANY ONCE AND SWORE I WOULD NEVER DO IT AGAIN. BUT MY HUSBAND AND I MET FOR LUNCH ONE DAY, AND WE DECIDED TO GO TO THIS LITTLE DINER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. THE OWNER TOLD ME SHE WAS LOOKING FOR HELP AND I HAPPILY OFFERED MY SERVICES BUT I HAD TO PRAY ABOUT IT FIRST. I PRAYED AND SOUGHT THE LORD'S ADVISE FOR 2 DAYS. AFTER THOSE 2 DAYS, I DECIDED THAT GOD WANTED ME TO BE THERE. SO I STARTED WORKING THERE.
I LOVE THE FACT THAT I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS AND THAT THE OWNER IS LISTENING TO ME. SHE IS STILL RUNNING IT LIKE SHE WANTS BUT SHE LET ME DO WHATEVER JOB I WANTED, SO I DECIDED TO BE THE HEAD CHEF. I DIDN'T REALIZE WHAT A HARD JOB THAT IS. BUT I'M LEARNING AND HOPEFULLY ONE DAY WILL BE IN MANAGEMENT. THAT IS EVERYONE'S GOAL, AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT I'M TOLD.
BUT WORKING HARD LIKE THIS, MAKES IT HARD FOR ME TO "REGULATE" MY MIND. THAT IS MY TROUBLE.
I AM WANTING TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS JOB LIKE NOW! I'M VERY HARD ON MYSELF AND I NEED TO EASE UP AND BE KIND TO MYSELF. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TRAINED AND THAT I AM A USEFUL EMPLOYEE. MY EMOTIONAL MIND IS EXPECTING ME TO KNOW EVERYTHING, AND TO REGULATE THOSE FEELINGS I NEED MY PUT MY DBT THERAPY INTO USE. I'M NOT GOING TO KNOW EVERYTHING AT ONCE AND ESPECIALLY WITHOUT BEING TAUGHT. I ALSO NEED TO LOVE MYSELF AND PUT ME FIRST. SO THAT IS MY FAULT AND I HAVE TO TAKE THIS JOB INTO SECTIONS. HOPEFULLY SOMEDAY I'LL GET IT!
I STARTED A JOB A WEEK AGO IN A LITTLE LOCAL DINER/BAKERY. I'VE ONLY WORKED FOR A SMALL COMPANY ONCE AND SWORE I WOULD NEVER DO IT AGAIN. BUT MY HUSBAND AND I MET FOR LUNCH ONE DAY, AND WE DECIDED TO GO TO THIS LITTLE DINER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. THE OWNER TOLD ME SHE WAS LOOKING FOR HELP AND I HAPPILY OFFERED MY SERVICES BUT I HAD TO PRAY ABOUT IT FIRST. I PRAYED AND SOUGHT THE LORD'S ADVISE FOR 2 DAYS. AFTER THOSE 2 DAYS, I DECIDED THAT GOD WANTED ME TO BE THERE. SO I STARTED WORKING THERE.
I LOVE THE FACT THAT I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS AND THAT THE OWNER IS LISTENING TO ME. SHE IS STILL RUNNING IT LIKE SHE WANTS BUT SHE LET ME DO WHATEVER JOB I WANTED, SO I DECIDED TO BE THE HEAD CHEF. I DIDN'T REALIZE WHAT A HARD JOB THAT IS. BUT I'M LEARNING AND HOPEFULLY ONE DAY WILL BE IN MANAGEMENT. THAT IS EVERYONE'S GOAL, AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT I'M TOLD.
BUT WORKING HARD LIKE THIS, MAKES IT HARD FOR ME TO "REGULATE" MY MIND. THAT IS MY TROUBLE.
I AM WANTING TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS JOB LIKE NOW! I'M VERY HARD ON MYSELF AND I NEED TO EASE UP AND BE KIND TO MYSELF. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TRAINED AND THAT I AM A USEFUL EMPLOYEE. MY EMOTIONAL MIND IS EXPECTING ME TO KNOW EVERYTHING, AND TO REGULATE THOSE FEELINGS I NEED MY PUT MY DBT THERAPY INTO USE. I'M NOT GOING TO KNOW EVERYTHING AT ONCE AND ESPECIALLY WITHOUT BEING TAUGHT. I ALSO NEED TO LOVE MYSELF AND PUT ME FIRST. SO THAT IS MY FAULT AND I HAVE TO TAKE THIS JOB INTO SECTIONS. HOPEFULLY SOMEDAY I'LL GET IT!
Saturday, October 3, 2015
GOOD DAY SIR!!! NAME THE MOVIE?!?!!?
I DON'T WANT MY BLOG TO BE ABOUT ME COMPLAINING ABOUT MY LIFE AND THE PEOPLE WHOM I COME IN CONTACT WITH. EVEN THOUGH MOST OF THEM ARE IDIOTS, I AM GOING TO SERIOUSLY TRY TO MAKE THIS ONE A LIGHT HEARTED LOVING ONE. SO WISH ME LUCK. HONESTLY I DON'T THINK I CAN DO...BUT I'LL TRY.
LAST NIGHT I HAD MY SON AND FOUR OF HIS FRIENDS OUT AND WE LISTENED TO CLASSIC ROCK AND DROVE AROUND...AT $2.50/GALLON FOR GAS. BUT IT WAS WORTH EVERY PENNY. IT'S SO FUNNY TO WATCH THESE 15 YEAR OLD BOYS DISCOVER AC/DC, PINK FLOYD, AND LED ZEPPELIN. I LOVE THE FACT THEY'RE NOT LISTENING TO CRAPPY RAP, "SHORTY", "MY NIGGA", KIND OF MUSIC. LET'S GET THESE KIDS CULTURED...HAHA.
OUR FIRST ADVENTURE WAS TO AN OLD ABANDONED HOUSE WITH A BARN. THE BARN HAD A NOOSE IN IT. THE HOUSE HAD ALL SORTS OF SPRAY PAINTING AND SAYINGS IN IT. BUT THE FLOOR IN THE HOUSE WAS CAVING IN AND I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS SAFE FOR US TO GO ALL THE WAY INSIDE. THEN OF COURSE, I HAD TO PLAY A TRICK ON THEM AND SAY I SAW SOMETHING. I MADE A HUGE THING WITH IT AND THE BOYS WERE SO SCARED IT TOTALLY MADE MY NIGHT.
FROM THERE WE WENT TO A LAKE AND PLAYED "I DARE YOU". WE DID THE USUAL, "GO BY THIS TREE OVER THERE AND STAND THERE FOR 30 SECONDS". BUT THE BOYS GAVE ME A BIG ONE AND MADE ME GO DOWN THIS PATH IN THE WOODS. I WENT, BUT I WAS PRAYING THE WHOLE TIME (NO LIE). THERE FOUND AN ARCHERY RANGE AT THE END AND THEN SOME OTHER THINGS. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THIS LAKE SINCE 1995 AND I NEVER KNEW THAT WAS THERE. IT WAS PRETTY COOL.
LASTLY, AND PROBABLY THE BEST WAS "CRY BABY BRIDGE". THE LEGEND SAYS THAT ON THIS BRIDGE THERE WERE SACRIFICES. AND ONE IN PARTICULAR WAS A MOTHER KILLING HER BABY. THE BRIDGE WAS TAKEN DOWN IN 2009, TO WIDEN THE ROAD...BUT!!! WE PULLED OFF A SIDE ROAD RIGHT NEXT TO THE BRIDGE AND JUST SAT THERE. AND THE RULES ARE YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR KEYS ON THE HOOD OF YOUR CAR. SO I DID!! THEN ROLL DOWN YOUR WINDOWS (WE CRACKED OURS BECAUSE IT WAS COLD) AND JUST WAITED.
WE WERE OF COURSE, ON OUR PHONES LOOKING UP THE BRIDGE INFO TO MAKE SURE WE WERE ON THE RIGHT ONE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE HEARD A SCREAM. IT WAS PERFECTLY CLEAR AND ALL 5 OF US HEARD IT AT THE SAME TIME. YOU KNOW THAT FEELING WHEN YOU'RE REALLY SCARED AND YOUR BODY GOES WARM, YOUR VISION GOES BLACK AND BLURRY, AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO PEE YOUR PANTS? YEAH THAT WAS US!! AND I STILL HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND GET MY KEYS ON THE HOOD OF THE CAR. I'M NOT AFRAID OF A LOT, PROBABLY CLOSE TO NOTHING BECAUSE I HAVE MY LORD, BUT THIS SERIOUSLY SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. BUT I GOT THOSE KEYS IN THE PITCH BLACK NIGHT AND WE GOT THE HECK OUT OF THERE AND WENT HOME.
WHAT A FUN NIGHT!! I LOVE THESE BOYS!!!
LAST NIGHT I HAD MY SON AND FOUR OF HIS FRIENDS OUT AND WE LISTENED TO CLASSIC ROCK AND DROVE AROUND...AT $2.50/GALLON FOR GAS. BUT IT WAS WORTH EVERY PENNY. IT'S SO FUNNY TO WATCH THESE 15 YEAR OLD BOYS DISCOVER AC/DC, PINK FLOYD, AND LED ZEPPELIN. I LOVE THE FACT THEY'RE NOT LISTENING TO CRAPPY RAP, "SHORTY", "MY NIGGA", KIND OF MUSIC. LET'S GET THESE KIDS CULTURED...HAHA.
OUR FIRST ADVENTURE WAS TO AN OLD ABANDONED HOUSE WITH A BARN. THE BARN HAD A NOOSE IN IT. THE HOUSE HAD ALL SORTS OF SPRAY PAINTING AND SAYINGS IN IT. BUT THE FLOOR IN THE HOUSE WAS CAVING IN AND I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS SAFE FOR US TO GO ALL THE WAY INSIDE. THEN OF COURSE, I HAD TO PLAY A TRICK ON THEM AND SAY I SAW SOMETHING. I MADE A HUGE THING WITH IT AND THE BOYS WERE SO SCARED IT TOTALLY MADE MY NIGHT.
FROM THERE WE WENT TO A LAKE AND PLAYED "I DARE YOU". WE DID THE USUAL, "GO BY THIS TREE OVER THERE AND STAND THERE FOR 30 SECONDS". BUT THE BOYS GAVE ME A BIG ONE AND MADE ME GO DOWN THIS PATH IN THE WOODS. I WENT, BUT I WAS PRAYING THE WHOLE TIME (NO LIE). THERE FOUND AN ARCHERY RANGE AT THE END AND THEN SOME OTHER THINGS. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THIS LAKE SINCE 1995 AND I NEVER KNEW THAT WAS THERE. IT WAS PRETTY COOL.
LASTLY, AND PROBABLY THE BEST WAS "CRY BABY BRIDGE". THE LEGEND SAYS THAT ON THIS BRIDGE THERE WERE SACRIFICES. AND ONE IN PARTICULAR WAS A MOTHER KILLING HER BABY. THE BRIDGE WAS TAKEN DOWN IN 2009, TO WIDEN THE ROAD...BUT!!! WE PULLED OFF A SIDE ROAD RIGHT NEXT TO THE BRIDGE AND JUST SAT THERE. AND THE RULES ARE YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR KEYS ON THE HOOD OF YOUR CAR. SO I DID!! THEN ROLL DOWN YOUR WINDOWS (WE CRACKED OURS BECAUSE IT WAS COLD) AND JUST WAITED.
WE WERE OF COURSE, ON OUR PHONES LOOKING UP THE BRIDGE INFO TO MAKE SURE WE WERE ON THE RIGHT ONE. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE HEARD A SCREAM. IT WAS PERFECTLY CLEAR AND ALL 5 OF US HEARD IT AT THE SAME TIME. YOU KNOW THAT FEELING WHEN YOU'RE REALLY SCARED AND YOUR BODY GOES WARM, YOUR VISION GOES BLACK AND BLURRY, AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO PEE YOUR PANTS? YEAH THAT WAS US!! AND I STILL HAD TO GO OUTSIDE AND GET MY KEYS ON THE HOOD OF THE CAR. I'M NOT AFRAID OF A LOT, PROBABLY CLOSE TO NOTHING BECAUSE I HAVE MY LORD, BUT THIS SERIOUSLY SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. BUT I GOT THOSE KEYS IN THE PITCH BLACK NIGHT AND WE GOT THE HECK OUT OF THERE AND WENT HOME.
WHAT A FUN NIGHT!! I LOVE THESE BOYS!!!
Sunday, September 20, 2015
THESE SOCCER PARENTS NEED TO BE RED CARDED!!!!
FIRST OFF I WOULD LIKE TO COMMENT ABOUT THE POST PRIOR TO THIS ON TITHING. I DO BELIEVE IN TITHING! THE WORD TITHE MEANS 10%, SO GOD ONLY ASKS FOR THE FIRST 10%, THAT'S IT. WE PERSONALLY TITHE ON THE 10% OF OUR NET NOT GROSS BECAUSE HONESTLY THAT'S OUR FAULT. ONE REASON WE DON'T HAVE A LOT OF MONEY RIGHT NOW AND TWO, WE ARE NOT COMPLETELY TRUSTING IN GOD. I'M JUST KEEPING IT REAL, BUT FOR US TO GIVE 10% ON OUR NET IS HUGE! I MEAN HUGE! FOR US. AND YOU KNOW WHAT...IT'S AMAZING BECAUSE THE MONEY CONTINUES TO ROLL INTO OUR HOUSE. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE IT'S COMING FROM, WELL I DO IT'S GOD, BUT HE NEVER LETS US DOWN OR GO WITHOUT, AND HE WILL ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF US. I JUST NEEDED TO CLEAR THAT UP FROM BEFORE, OK ONTO SOCCER PARENTS. HAHA
MALACHI 3:8 "Begin by being honest. Do honest people rob God? But you rob me day after day. "You ask, 'How have we robbed you?' "The tithe and the offering - that's how!'
MALACHI 3:10 10 Bring your full tithe to the Temple treasury so there will be ample provisions in my Temple. Test me in this and see if I don't open up heaven itself to you and pour out blessings beyond your wildest dreams.
MY YOUNGEST SON STARTED HIS FIRST JOB AS A REFEREE AT A LOCAL SOCCER LEAGUE IN OUR AREA. I LIVE IN A VERY AFFLUENT AREA CALLED JOHNSON COUNTY KANSAS, LOOK IT UP THERE IS LOTS OF MONEY OUT HERE, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN LOTS OF HAPPINESS. SO I DECIDED TO WATCH HIM REF HIS LAST GAME AND WAS GOING TO STAND IN THE BACKGROUND, IN THE SHADE, AND JUST BASK IN APPRECIATION THAT MY SON IS WANTING TO GET OUT THERE AND WORK IN THE SPORT INDUSTRY EVEN THOUGH DUE TO A GENETIC CONNECTIVE TISSUE DISEASE HE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PLAY ANY KIND OF SPORTS. SEE HE HAS MARFAN SYNDROME AND HE IS A FLUKE THAT HE EVEN HAS IT BECAUSE NO ONE IN OUT FAMILY HAS IT. HE IS AN AMAZING PERSON!! AND I AM SO PROUD OF HIM.
BUT THIS ONE MOTHER, IF YOU WANT TO CALL HER THAT, STARTED YELLING AT AT MY SON. AND THAT'S WHEN MY CLAWS COME OUT. DON'T EVER EVER EVER TALK SIDEWAYS TO ANY OF MY CHILDREN...EVER!!! SO I WALKED UP TO THE SIDELINES AND STOOD BETWEEN MY SON AND HER. AND SHE WAS YELLING FOR HER TEAM AND SHE WAS LOUD, NEVER ONCE DID SHE CHEER ON THE OTHER TEAM. OH DID I MENTION THESE WERE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! YEAH! LITTLE BOYS! WE WONDER WHY OUR CHILDREN ARE SHOOTING EACH OTHER IN SCHOOLS OR DISRESPECTING POLICE OFFICERS? WELL LET'S LOOK AT THE SIDELINES OF A SOCCER GAME! WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TEACHING YOUR CHILDREN?!?!
I WENT TO ON ASK MY SON DURING THE GAME IF HE WAS SURE HE WANTED TO DO THIS JOB BECAUSE THESE PARENTS ARE CRAZY, WELL THAT GOT ALL THESE CRAZY PARENTS EVEN MORE CRAZY! THEY DECIDED TO GO AFTER ME, BUT I CAN HOLD MY OWN BECAUSE I HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT WITH ME ALWAYS. I WENT ON TO EXPLAIN TO THEM THAT THESE ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS, AND HOW THEY NEVER CHEERED ON THE OTHER TEAM, AND YELLING AT THE REF (ON HIS FIRST DAY) WAS UNACCEPTABLE, AND THEN AGAIN REMINDING THEM THEY ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! THEY BLAMED MY SON FOR ONE OF THE PLAYERS GETTING HURT, SO I WAS LIKE DID MY SON GO ON THE FIELD AND KICK HIM?? THAT DIDN'T GO OVER WELL. HAHAHA
ANOTHER PROBLEM I HAVE. WHY DON'T THEY DO THE HAND "HIGH FIVE" THING ANYMORE. YOU KNOW HOW THE TEAMS WALK ACROSS THE FIELDS TELLING EACH OTHER "GOOD JOB". NONE OF THAT HAPPENING, I WAS APPALLED! THIS IS WHY THERE IS BULLYING AND FIGHTING IN SCHOOL! BUT THE BEST WAS WHEN I WALKED AWAY, THE "MOM" WITH THE LEGGINGS, TIGHT PINK SHIRT, AND BLEACH BLONDE SPIKY HAIR GOES, "BYE FELICIA"! HAHAHA! WHO SAYS THAT ANYMORE???? I JUST TURNED AN LOOKED AT HER IN CONFUSION. REALLY?
IF YOU ARE A SOCCER PARENT AND READING THIS, IT STARTS WITH YOU! PLEASE MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND INSPIRE YOUR CHILDREN AND THE OTHER CHILDREN. EVEN TRY TO INSPIRE THE COACHES AND ENCOURAGE THE TEENAGER REFEREES.
MALACHI 3:8 "Begin by being honest. Do honest people rob God? But you rob me day after day. "You ask, 'How have we robbed you?' "The tithe and the offering - that's how!'
MALACHI 3:10 10 Bring your full tithe to the Temple treasury so there will be ample provisions in my Temple. Test me in this and see if I don't open up heaven itself to you and pour out blessings beyond your wildest dreams.
MY YOUNGEST SON STARTED HIS FIRST JOB AS A REFEREE AT A LOCAL SOCCER LEAGUE IN OUR AREA. I LIVE IN A VERY AFFLUENT AREA CALLED JOHNSON COUNTY KANSAS, LOOK IT UP THERE IS LOTS OF MONEY OUT HERE, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN LOTS OF HAPPINESS. SO I DECIDED TO WATCH HIM REF HIS LAST GAME AND WAS GOING TO STAND IN THE BACKGROUND, IN THE SHADE, AND JUST BASK IN APPRECIATION THAT MY SON IS WANTING TO GET OUT THERE AND WORK IN THE SPORT INDUSTRY EVEN THOUGH DUE TO A GENETIC CONNECTIVE TISSUE DISEASE HE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PLAY ANY KIND OF SPORTS. SEE HE HAS MARFAN SYNDROME AND HE IS A FLUKE THAT HE EVEN HAS IT BECAUSE NO ONE IN OUT FAMILY HAS IT. HE IS AN AMAZING PERSON!! AND I AM SO PROUD OF HIM.
BUT THIS ONE MOTHER, IF YOU WANT TO CALL HER THAT, STARTED YELLING AT AT MY SON. AND THAT'S WHEN MY CLAWS COME OUT. DON'T EVER EVER EVER TALK SIDEWAYS TO ANY OF MY CHILDREN...EVER!!! SO I WALKED UP TO THE SIDELINES AND STOOD BETWEEN MY SON AND HER. AND SHE WAS YELLING FOR HER TEAM AND SHE WAS LOUD, NEVER ONCE DID SHE CHEER ON THE OTHER TEAM. OH DID I MENTION THESE WERE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! YEAH! LITTLE BOYS! WE WONDER WHY OUR CHILDREN ARE SHOOTING EACH OTHER IN SCHOOLS OR DISRESPECTING POLICE OFFICERS? WELL LET'S LOOK AT THE SIDELINES OF A SOCCER GAME! WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TEACHING YOUR CHILDREN?!?!
I WENT TO ON ASK MY SON DURING THE GAME IF HE WAS SURE HE WANTED TO DO THIS JOB BECAUSE THESE PARENTS ARE CRAZY, WELL THAT GOT ALL THESE CRAZY PARENTS EVEN MORE CRAZY! THEY DECIDED TO GO AFTER ME, BUT I CAN HOLD MY OWN BECAUSE I HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT WITH ME ALWAYS. I WENT ON TO EXPLAIN TO THEM THAT THESE ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS, AND HOW THEY NEVER CHEERED ON THE OTHER TEAM, AND YELLING AT THE REF (ON HIS FIRST DAY) WAS UNACCEPTABLE, AND THEN AGAIN REMINDING THEM THEY ARE 10 YEAR OLD BOYS!!! THEY BLAMED MY SON FOR ONE OF THE PLAYERS GETTING HURT, SO I WAS LIKE DID MY SON GO ON THE FIELD AND KICK HIM?? THAT DIDN'T GO OVER WELL. HAHAHA
ANOTHER PROBLEM I HAVE. WHY DON'T THEY DO THE HAND "HIGH FIVE" THING ANYMORE. YOU KNOW HOW THE TEAMS WALK ACROSS THE FIELDS TELLING EACH OTHER "GOOD JOB". NONE OF THAT HAPPENING, I WAS APPALLED! THIS IS WHY THERE IS BULLYING AND FIGHTING IN SCHOOL! BUT THE BEST WAS WHEN I WALKED AWAY, THE "MOM" WITH THE LEGGINGS, TIGHT PINK SHIRT, AND BLEACH BLONDE SPIKY HAIR GOES, "BYE FELICIA"! HAHAHA! WHO SAYS THAT ANYMORE???? I JUST TURNED AN LOOKED AT HER IN CONFUSION. REALLY?
IF YOU ARE A SOCCER PARENT AND READING THIS, IT STARTS WITH YOU! PLEASE MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND INSPIRE YOUR CHILDREN AND THE OTHER CHILDREN. EVEN TRY TO INSPIRE THE COACHES AND ENCOURAGE THE TEENAGER REFEREES.
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
SHALL WE PICK APART ROMANS 3:23?
I HAVE SO MANY CRAZY THEORIES ABOUT CHURCH, BUT I THINK IT'S BECAUSE I'VE BEEN SO BURNED IN THE PAST. BUT EVEN GOD SAYS NOT TO PUT YOUR TRUST IN MAN. WE ARE TO PUT OUR TRUST IN GOD. GOD WILL NEVER LET US DOWN, BUT MAN WILL ALWAYS LET US DOWN. I THINK ROMANS 3:23 IS THE PERFECT VERSE THAT FITS THIS THINKING,
"FOR ALL HAVE SINNED AND FALL SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD".
IT DOESN'T SAY FOR ONE OR TWO HAVE SINNED, IT SAYS ALL OF US HAVE SINNED.
OUR PRIDE HOLDS US BACK FROM ADMITTING THAT WE ARE SINNERS. WHO WANTS TO BELIEVE THAT WE HAVE FAULTS??? I CAN NAME A FEW MEN IN MY LIFE AND IN THE PUBLIC EYE THAT DON'T WANT TO OWN THEIR FLAWS. BUT THE MINUTE WE OWN THEM AND ASK GOD FOR FORGIVENESS IT'S DONE!!! HE FORGIVES!!! HOW COOL IS THAT??? I TRY SO HARD TO DO THAT WITH MY CHILDREN AND OTHERS IN MY LIFE, THE MINUTE THEY SAY THEY'RE SORRY...BOOM! I FORGIVE THEM! BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M A DOORSTEP, JUST THE OPPOSITE. I'LL FORGIVE, BUT LEARN FROM IT AND DON'T DO IT AGAIN, YOU FEEL ME?!?!
AND THEN WE ALL FALL SHORT OF GOD. NO ONE, NOT ONE PERSON ON THIS PLANET HOLDS A CANDLE TO GOD. FALLING SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD MEANS GOD IS ALL MIGHTY, HE IS IT!!! THE BIG KAHUNA!!! THE END ALL THAT ENDS ALL!!! WE USED TO GO TO A CHURCH IN THIS VERY AFFLUENT AREA AND THIS CHURCH WAS A "MEGA-CHURCH". PASTOR JERRY JOHNSTON WAS HIS NAME AND I WOULD LIKE TO SAY HE LOVED THE LORD, BUT! BUT! HE LOVED HIMSELF A LOT MORE!!! AND HE LOVED HIS/OUR MONEY SO MUCH MORE! AND IT WAS UNFORTUNATE THAT MY HUSBAND AND I DIDN'T SEE THIS AND WE RAISED OUR CHILDREN IN THIS MEGA-CHURCH. OUR OLDER CHILDREN WOULD GO KICKING AND SCREAMING. NEVER ONCE DID WE EVER SHOW OUR CHILDREN ANY GRACE AND REALLY STOP TO HEAR THEM OUT, WE JUST THOUGHT IT WAS THE DEVIL, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT "PASTOR JERRY" SAID. ALONG WITH JERRY SAYING WE MUST DO A "MAKE UP TITHE", ONE BIG TITHE A YEAR ON ANY INCOME THAT WE NEVER TITHED ON BEFORE...IN OUR ENTIRE WORKING HISTORY! WE WERE TO GO THROUGH OUR TAX RECORDS AND LOOK OVER THEM AND THEN THE NEXT SUNDAY BRING IN OUR MONEY. REALLY?? WAS IT TO PAY OFF YOUR OR YOUR SON'S MULTI MILLION DOLLAR HOMES OR THAT NEW HEATED OUTDOOR POOL YOU JUST INSTALLED, PASTOR JERRY AND JEREMY JOHNSTON??? WHAT WAS CRAZY WAS I THINK WE WERE IN A CULT AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT!!! SEE THIS IS WHY ROMANS 3:23 IS SO IMPORTANT, EVEN PASTORS WILL LET YOU DOWN. DON'T PUT YOUR TRUST IN MAN, PUT IT IN JESUS. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.
"FOR ALL HAVE SINNED AND FALL SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD".
IT DOESN'T SAY FOR ONE OR TWO HAVE SINNED, IT SAYS ALL OF US HAVE SINNED.
OUR PRIDE HOLDS US BACK FROM ADMITTING THAT WE ARE SINNERS. WHO WANTS TO BELIEVE THAT WE HAVE FAULTS??? I CAN NAME A FEW MEN IN MY LIFE AND IN THE PUBLIC EYE THAT DON'T WANT TO OWN THEIR FLAWS. BUT THE MINUTE WE OWN THEM AND ASK GOD FOR FORGIVENESS IT'S DONE!!! HE FORGIVES!!! HOW COOL IS THAT??? I TRY SO HARD TO DO THAT WITH MY CHILDREN AND OTHERS IN MY LIFE, THE MINUTE THEY SAY THEY'RE SORRY...BOOM! I FORGIVE THEM! BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M A DOORSTEP, JUST THE OPPOSITE. I'LL FORGIVE, BUT LEARN FROM IT AND DON'T DO IT AGAIN, YOU FEEL ME?!?!
AND THEN WE ALL FALL SHORT OF GOD. NO ONE, NOT ONE PERSON ON THIS PLANET HOLDS A CANDLE TO GOD. FALLING SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD MEANS GOD IS ALL MIGHTY, HE IS IT!!! THE BIG KAHUNA!!! THE END ALL THAT ENDS ALL!!! WE USED TO GO TO A CHURCH IN THIS VERY AFFLUENT AREA AND THIS CHURCH WAS A "MEGA-CHURCH". PASTOR JERRY JOHNSTON WAS HIS NAME AND I WOULD LIKE TO SAY HE LOVED THE LORD, BUT! BUT! HE LOVED HIMSELF A LOT MORE!!! AND HE LOVED HIS/OUR MONEY SO MUCH MORE! AND IT WAS UNFORTUNATE THAT MY HUSBAND AND I DIDN'T SEE THIS AND WE RAISED OUR CHILDREN IN THIS MEGA-CHURCH. OUR OLDER CHILDREN WOULD GO KICKING AND SCREAMING. NEVER ONCE DID WE EVER SHOW OUR CHILDREN ANY GRACE AND REALLY STOP TO HEAR THEM OUT, WE JUST THOUGHT IT WAS THE DEVIL, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT "PASTOR JERRY" SAID. ALONG WITH JERRY SAYING WE MUST DO A "MAKE UP TITHE", ONE BIG TITHE A YEAR ON ANY INCOME THAT WE NEVER TITHED ON BEFORE...IN OUR ENTIRE WORKING HISTORY! WE WERE TO GO THROUGH OUR TAX RECORDS AND LOOK OVER THEM AND THEN THE NEXT SUNDAY BRING IN OUR MONEY. REALLY?? WAS IT TO PAY OFF YOUR OR YOUR SON'S MULTI MILLION DOLLAR HOMES OR THAT NEW HEATED OUTDOOR POOL YOU JUST INSTALLED, PASTOR JERRY AND JEREMY JOHNSTON??? WHAT WAS CRAZY WAS I THINK WE WERE IN A CULT AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT!!! SEE THIS IS WHY ROMANS 3:23 IS SO IMPORTANT, EVEN PASTORS WILL LET YOU DOWN. DON'T PUT YOUR TRUST IN MAN, PUT IT IN JESUS. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.
Thursday, September 10, 2015
LET'S JUST KEEP THIS REAL...SHALL WE???
SO I KNOW THAT I'VE NOT BEEN BLOGGING LATELY, BUT I GUESS YOU COULD SAY I'VE BEEN "OBSERVING". AND HONESTLY, I'M JUST SO FRUSTRATED AT THE SOME OF THE BEHAVIORS OF THE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD! I HAVE SOME STORIES I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE BUT I HAVE TO KEEP THIS SOMEWHAT SHORT. MAYBE MY NEXT BLOGS WILL BE THE ENCOUNTERS I HAVE HAD WITH THE JERK OFFS THAT WERE PUT IN MY PATH. YEAH, I THINK THAT IS WHAT I'LL DO. THIS BLOG WILL BE THE SET UP, MY RANT (IF YOU WILL) ABOUT HOW I FEEL AND MAYBE EVEN SOME SOLUTIONS FOR ALL THIS CHAOS.
LET ME START BY SAYING TO ALL OF YOU WHOM BEEN READING MY BLOG KNOW THAT I'M A JESUS FREAK! I LOVE MY GOD, AND ASK ALMOST MINUTELY FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT TO GIVE ME STRENGTH AND GRACE. I DON'T ALWAYS HAVE GRACE, BUT I'M WORKING ON THAT. I AM VERY QUICK WITH MY WORDS, AND THAT USED TO GET ME IN TROUBLE. BUT ASKING THE HOLY SPIRIT TO OPEN MY EYES, GIVE ME STRENGTH, AND MY WORDS I BELIEVE MY WORDS CAN BE HARSH BUT THOSE WORDS ARE WHAT SOME PEOPLE NEED TO HEAR AT THAT PRESENT TIME. I'M NOT SAYING THAT I'M JESUS, BUT EVEN JESUS GOT ANGRY WHEN HE WENT TO THE TEMPLE AND THERE WAS A MARKET. IN EPHESIANS 4 PAUL SAYS IT'S OK TO GET ANGRY, BUT DON'T USE IS AS REVENGE AND DON'T STAY ANGRY, THAT IS WHEN YOU ARE ALLOWING THE DEVIL INTO YOUR LIFE.
I'M UPSET ABOUT THE WAY PEOPLE ARE TREATING EACH OTHER, AND ESPECIALLY THE WAY THE MEN IN MY FAMILY TREAT THE WOMEN IN OUR FAMILY!!! LET'S JUST START THERE! I'M MARRIED TO A PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE MAN AND IN MY OPINION THAT IS A FORM OF MENTAL ABUSE. BUT NOT JUST ABUSE AGAINST ME, ABUSE AGAINST HIMSELF. HOW SAD IS IT THAT HE JUST CAN'T COME OUT AND TELL ME THAT SOMETHING OFFENDED HIM? INSTEAD HE HAS TO GO AROUND THE ISSUE AND "WORD JAB". I WOULD LIKE TO THINK THIS DOESN'T MAKE HIM FEEL GOOD ABOUT HIMSELF, AT LEAST I HOPE IT DOESN'T. I WOULDN'T KNOW BECAUSE I'M NOT THAT WAY, IF I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH SOMEONE I GO RIGHT TO THAT SOURCE. I SEE PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE A THE START OF CANCER. IF YOU ALLOW THAT ANGER TO GROW INSIDE OF YOU IT'S GOING TO TAKE OVER. THAT CAN'T BE GOOD.
I'M GOING TO LEAVE YOU WITH THESE WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT FROM PAUL FROM THE BOOK OF EPHESIANS 5: 22-33
"Wives, understand and support your husbands in ways that show your support for Christ. The husband provides leadership to his wife the way Christ does to his church, not by domineering but by cherishing. So just as the church submits to Christ as he exercises such leadership, wives should likewise submit to their husbands.
25-28 Husbands, go all out in your love for your wives, exactly as Christ did for the church—a love marked by giving, not getting. Christ’s love makes the church whole. His words evoke her beauty. Everything he does and says is designed to bring the best out of her, dressing her in dazzling white silk, radiant with holiness. And that is how husbands ought to love their wives. They’re really doing themselves a favor—since they’re already “one” in marriage.
29-33 No one abuses his own body, does he? No, he feeds and pampers it. That’s how Christ treats us, the church, since we are part of his body. And this is why a man leaves father and mother and cherishes his wife. No longer two, they become “one flesh.” This is a huge mystery, and I don’t pretend to understand it all. What is clearest to me is the way Christ treats the church. And this provides a good picture of how each husband is to treat his wife, loving himself in loving her, and how each wife is to honor her husband."
IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN
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